In the Kansas City market you get one game a week and it’s a random game on Saturdays. Not really interested in the MLB but it’s so ridiculous to me that if I was I’d have to get like 3 different subscriptions. But we don’t get anything but golf, nascar, and NFL in this market on TV. And the rare NBA game around Christmas and then some of the finals stuff.
Yeah that’s pretty ridiculous. In the KC market the Royals (MLB) are only on Fox Sports (in some like KC specific package), Chiefs are on broadcast tv, Sporting (MLS) is only on Apple TV I think now. We have no NHL or NBA team but those are all on various cable channels and/or ESPN plus.
More and more stuff is forced onto cable (like almost all of March Madness was only on cable tv). And of course all the stuff split out onto streaming stuff. It’s such a shitshow and only getting worse.
So I’m a shut-in with a ton of problems and no money. My life revolves around World of Warcraft and Destiny 2 which is sad in its own right I’m sure. Anyway every single time I try to find a community (guild or clan) it goes to hell within a month or so. They always say I’m too negative about the game or my performance. No...
I’d talked with the leadership about how I’ve been considered negative in the past. Even pointing out that I’m not necessarily being negative but usually hard on myself or commenting how a change felt bad or good. But it always goes the same way.
Also I really doubt anyone gives a crap. I’m 39 and alone with one friend online, but she’s got kids and a life. When I talk about the stuff I like people think I’m being negative even if I say nice things.
I can’t afford to see a therapist. I mentioned this in my post. I live in constant physical pain and mental pain layered over everything else. So not sure what to tell you.
You mentioned being lighter about stuff. When I talk about the only things that give me some good people think I’m too intense. If I try to tone that down then they say I’m vanishing or something. I can’t win either way.
I had talked to them about how I come off as negative but don’t mean it thar way. They said I was good and to not stress it. So I was just beint me and tonight I get a ‘you’re being negative and we don’t want that in our community’. So even being real with them and talking to them about this it wasn’t good enough.
I don’t have insurance because it costs $600 a month. So again that’s not an option. Gaming addiction? These are my current fixations that bring some tiny joy in this miserable existence so I’m not sure how that is considered ‘addiction’, especially in an autistic community. Also wasn’t really looking for help. Just being seen/heard/understood is more than I get anywhere so I thought I could post here. Sorry if that was wrong.
Putting up a wall isn’t something I do typically. Basically when I go into a group or whatever I am myself because I can’t really hide behind a fake persona or whatever anymore (for a number of reasons, not important here). When I’ve tried to be the person others expect they walk all over me or use me then toss me away. When I’m myself they reject me. So if I have a wall up it’s not very high and definitely doesn’t stay up. So I guess I don’t get it. I try so hard and it always ends the same either way.
That’s true. I’ve terrible experiences irl too. When I joined an LGBTQIA+ group at school they ostersiced me for saying that I personally had no issue talking to someone who had questions about the communities I fell into. Like that was a terrible thing to them so they shunned me. It was so funny because we had a room you could go to to hang out/study/chill in and when I’d walk in they’d all get up and leave. Other times I’ve just been furniture for the group. Like they say ‘we want you here/we like you being here’ but when I’d try to engage they’d just shut down. Now with COVID and no place to even try to find friends I gave up. I’m in too much pain and can’t afford to go do things so yeah.
Dunno. If something is going, say an event is coming up, I’d say ‘hey anyone want to group up and do this? We can schedule a day/time even!’ and literally no one would engage with it. So it was a lot of just talking to myself.
Sorry you feel like I’m arguing with them. But people telling me to ‘go see a doctor’ when I’ve already said I don’t have any money isn’t helpful. I’m also not going into every single fine detail of my health here so a lot of the suggestions are just not going to work. Also people keep saying ‘be positive’ or whatever and I can’t make people see what I’ve said (since it was all stuff in guild/clan discords), but I’ve done the ‘positive’ thing and it ended up the same way. Though usually the positive thing ended with me feeling more alone. So yeah I’m sorry that all of the ‘long thought out helpful advice’ isn’t really helpful to me. I was ‘arguing’ with people who were clearly not reading my original post when they jumped straight to ‘go spend money on a doctor/therapist’.
Due to this, I’m afraid of working on my own projects. This fear especially intensifies when I’m reaching some kind of milestone or personal goal (e.g. implementing a feature in software, or going to the next phase of a drawing), and end up procrastinating instead. Even worse is that I believe if I could get them finished, I...
By forcing myself to do something if it’s something I can do. Basically this only works with video games since no matter how hard I try I can’t apply it to a job, relationship, being a functional human being.
The TV thing was something I mentioned to my mom. Like it’s really hard to give a shit about the Royals, or baseball in general, because you can’t watch any games without some crazy cable package. Add in that the Royals are trash most of the time and it’s an even harder sell.
The Chiefs are a solid element and the TV part helps a lot. Of course winning helps a lot too. Because I remember the bad years but they were still at least on TV (usually).
i was questioning that, since i can remember in two years i havent dream a lot, now i cant remember i cant dream, is like i just sleep is pure black, do you have this? or do you dream too?
For the longest time I didn’t ever dream. Now the only dreams I have are pointless brain dumps of random bs that come up after I wake up and fall asleep for 20 more min. Don’t ever remember them but they’re real garbage.
I can wing cooking something. Essentially I riff out a dish without a recipe and limited pantry. This also means I can make good tasting food even if it doesn’t look amazing.
It’s at least amazing to my mom haha. She is always like ‘I don’t get how you come up with sfuff’ when I slap something together. I didn’t think it was a big deal but my mom can’t cook without a recipe and my brother can’t cook for anything.
I’m really confused about this. On one hand (✋), I can see how dating an autistic person would be amazing because we would just understand each other on another level. We would get each other’s emotions, meltdowns, joy, special interests, hyperfocus, communication style, etc. Also, there’s no NT partner to miss whatever...
I’m resigned to being single till I die. But I think either option has its pros and cons. End of the day though if you love someone and they love you it’s possible to work through stuff if you communicate.
I’d never watch something you’re not into. It’s just miserable to force yourself to watch a show you don’t like. Juat because you read a manga doesn’t mean you should or need to watch its anime.
This is a thing with every dishwasher I’ve had, some models seem better than other. You wash the dishes and when they dry, they have a musty odor I can only describe as “wet dog”. Other people often don’t seem to notice this, so maybe I am just sensitive to it. Though if I point it out, then they smell it....
To help with smell in the washer we keep the liquid soap tray open after we finish using it. And leave the lid open most of the time. It seems to keep humidity down and the smell went away almost instantly.
Feels very far right psy-op focused honestly. These memes all started popping up as soon as Trump and co started railing against her. Sure she has made comments about using jets and then does the opposite, but like it’s obviously going to happen. Notice these same people don’t talk about musks rampent jet usage. Or other celebrities. But again soon as the far right starts going after Swift we get inundated in these swift jet memes.
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Sure someone could bring in a knife and stab people. But the culture around guns (toxic masculinity, using violence as a means to win an argument, etc) are all problems. And at this point the guns are definitely the main problem. We can look at celebrations in other locales and the rates of violence are lower. And most other ‘first world countries’ have stricter rules/regulations on firearms. Trying to act like guns are part of the problem is just burying ones head in the sand. Sure other factors play into the violence, but when you can easily get a firearm and wish to hurt others it’s a lot easier than pulling out a kitchen knife.
Netflix gets the NFL: Three-year deal starts this season on Christmas (arstechnica.com)
The NFL brings eyeballs like no other content, and subscribers actually stick around.
Being 'to negative'
So I’m a shut-in with a ton of problems and no money. My life revolves around World of Warcraft and Destiny 2 which is sad in its own right I’m sure. Anyway every single time I try to find a community (guild or clan) it goes to hell within a month or so. They always say I’m too negative about the game or my performance. No...
We may not have everything pinned down yet, partially because of the "I am/my kid is special too!" movement; but if several or more symptoms aren't shared, the specific label shouldn't be shared. (lemm.ee)
How to deal with a fear of failure?
Due to this, I’m afraid of working on my own projects. This fear especially intensifies when I’m reaching some kind of milestone or personal goal (e.g. implementing a feature in software, or going to the next phase of a drawing), and end up procrastinating instead. Even worse is that I believe if I could get them finished, I...
Why the Chiefs and Royals couldn’t convince Kansas City voters to foot the bill for their stadiums (theconversation.com)
How much do you dream when you sleep?
i was questioning that, since i can remember in two years i havent dream a lot, now i cant remember i cant dream, is like i just sleep is pure black, do you have this? or do you dream too?
What's your uncanny special talent, or what comes absolutely natural to you that makes others look at you in intrigue/disbelief?
I know not everyone of us has a special talent, but many of us do. Some are just incredible. So, what are they??...
Fellow auties, which do you find is a better and healthier fit for you: dating another autistic person or an NT?
I’m really confused about this. On one hand (✋), I can see how dating an autistic person would be amazing because we would just understand each other on another level. We would get each other’s emotions, meltdowns, joy, special interests, hyperfocus, communication style, etc. Also, there’s no NT partner to miss whatever...
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How do you get rid of "wet dog" smell in a dishwasher?
This is a thing with every dishwasher I’ve had, some models seem better than other. You wash the dishes and when they dry, they have a musty odor I can only describe as “wet dog”. Other people often don’t seem to notice this, so maybe I am just sensitive to it. Though if I point it out, then they smell it....
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Normal people at the pool (i.redd.it)
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One killed, nine hurt in Chiefs parade shooting (www.espn.com)