Say what you will about him (and I have) but I agree with Sam Harris:
Whatever the explanation for consciousness is, it might always seem like a miracle.
And for what it’s worth, I think it always will seem like a miracle.
Re: utilitarianism ...
You could say I was a professional utilitarian for 30 years (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matt_Ball). But writing my latest (https://www.losingmyreligions.net/ - free version) led to working through problems that had been bubbling up in my consciousness. I now believe I was wrong. But mine certainly isn't a view I see anywhere! (Specifically, the "I Welcome Our Robot Overlords" and "Biting the Philosophical Bullet" chapters.)
Fighting me and other survey results (dynomight.net)
Do extroverts have more martial confidence?