Wow, I feel you on the "too busy doing things I was 'supposed' be doing" thing, except my "supposed to" was college. I wasted a lot of good money because I didn't know what I was doing there except that I was supposed to go to college. Now, 14 years later, and I'm trying to train for something else (programming too) because I don't like doing what I ended up going to college for. Talk about regret.