Hrt doesn’t make me “pass” but it prevents me from getting more masculine. Prevents hair loss, prevents growing more facial hair, thins body hair (not nearly as much as I’d like), etc. none of it is enough to make people see me as a woman, but it’s enough that I feel comfortable going to bed.
My boobs aren’t noticeable to most people, but they’re technically there! Just the little bump and change in sensitivity is enough to make me feel feminine, even though a plane t shirt is enough to make them invisible.
Do you get any personal benefits like that? You say you’re spending $120 for “peace of mind”, which kind of sounds like what I’m talking about about. IMO that’s worth it.
You sound depressed to me. Are you getting treatment for that? HRT didn’t solve my depression, I still need antidepressants and therapy. But at least it gives me that peace of mind.
Also just looked at your pic. We look kinda similar, and I think we look cute. And if you think no cis women look like you, you’re just plain wrong. If you feel the same way about your hair that I do, then ita probably worth it just for keeping it