As I said, the realization that I'm autistic disn't lead to that much of an identity crisis. It's way more about starting to understand how my brain actually works. It's continuation of what I learned in therapy, partly using tools that I acquired there. Some of the aha moments have left me with an open mouth after saying "fuck" to myself.
My thinking is partly based on intuition bundles, as I like to call them. In fact, I think my intuition is very well developed. I understand many things, including scientific topics, by intuition. However, putting that understanding in words might be a real struggle. In science, that's not a good thing. This is partly behind my dislike of partaking in scientific debate.
I've started wondering whether relying on intuition is some sort of strategy my brain has developed. As it gathers lots of information and fails to filter the crucial bits, maybe it has started to create these association groupings, that is intuition bundles. I feel things as wholes but might not be able to verbalize them.
