Yeah, you need to just stop saying sorry. All your words mean nothing, because you are failing to grasp just how self defeating it is to apologize so often.
You are feeling sorry for yourself. No one else is.
It’s honestly so stupidly simple, but here you are adding layers of complexity to something that is begging the opposite.
I know I’m wasting my time writing this, because a lot of who you are at your core is evident, and you are afraid to actually face yourself.
Stop saying sorry and allow yourself to focus on something which might lead to a better life, because this self absorbed victim mentality will lead to actual mental illness.