Recurring experiences with the Abyss/Void/Abzu/Deep Waters/Nothingness etc.

Well, some days ago, when I was about to sleep, I had a hypnagogic experience with Abzu in his form of Abyss/Deep Waters/Void, and I felt the same as I felt when I had my NDE with the Abyss/Void in 2018, except I was fine. And I was able to AP (bilocate) to the Abyss, and it was weird, I felt good, but I felt like a deep waters fish and like one of the Children of the Abyss. ​ I don’t know if that’s normal, but my experiences with Abzu/Abyss/Void are kinda turning me even more nihilistic and like whatever to stuff that happens with me at micro level, but I still have a strong resistance with stuff at macro level (National Brazilian politics, BRICS+ politics, US-NATO politics, World politics etc), yet, I can see I’m becoming even more nihilistic and more contemplative about the world and about nature and the universe, more into Black Hole worship and stuff. ​ I also have lots of experiences with the Abyss/Void black holes (spiritual/astral black holes), and I don’t know if that’s normal, but sometimes I feel like I am very detached of material stuff and I am like whatever about material stuff, as long as I can have a good life and good living conditions. ​ And also, I can even feel how much stuff like logic and rationality are as abstract as mathematics and metaphysics, despite I am very atheistic sometimes, I am aware of how metaphysical and abstract logic and reasoning are, maybe some kind of Abzunian/Abyssian/Voidian/Voidist version of Weber, Marx, Levi-Strauss, and Bookchin (if that makes sense for others). ​ And also, I often have lots of experiences with the Abzu/Abyss/Void when I take my antipsychotics (risperidone), yeah, I often had lots of experiences with gods and stuff with risperidone and still do, but nowadays it is all within the Abzu/Abyss. ​ Maybe there are some other people right there who are also like that, so that’s the why I made this post.