I’ve been sober for 5.5 years. Recently we had a party and someone gave us champagne. I thought, well it’s been 5.5 years, I should be able to handle a glass. After a couple of sips I felt the urges so much more intense than before. I had another glass, already causing some weird looks from close people, and felt bad afterwards. Since then, now and then the idea of trying again slipped into my mind. Feels like my mind is tricking me that I should try again. We’re on a weekend break away now, so another reason for my mind to say that it would be okay to drink.
I read my notes from when I quit, with reasons why I quit, as I thought I would need them later. That definitely helped. Still, having urges :(
Why can’t I drink like most normal people :( Thanks for reading.