I think I'm done with watching real competitive team sports. I've always had problems with excitement when watching my favorite team play. I've watched yesterdays super bowl, my team being the 49ers. My heart was racing the whole game and it was impossible for me to control my temper in any way, I was stimming like crazy the whole time. Regardless of my team losing, I did not get anything positive out of that experience. I just felt miserable the whole game.
@vger@actuallyautistic The thing is, in the same way that cis heterosexual men get so much and are given so much because that hyper focused passionate joy is infectious and very attractive, that crowd build up of emotion is thrilling and never leaves you.
I think that's what the Bible is referring to when they say mankind have no greater thing under the Sun than to eat drink and be merry.
To be able to live like that is great
The only thing greater is to multiply the people who are able to
@vger@actuallyautistic and the autistic person's life is for the most part totally different than that there's a hyper focus and that's almost never popular, and problem with noises and crowds make it less fun, and on the flip side we feel left out because we're not too easily going to fit in that group