@actuallyautistic So, today was my first appointment with a therapist who specialized on late diagnosed autists. She thinks that I am most definitely on the spectrum and strongly suggested to go for an official diagnosis, which will now be my next great quest. I got many addresses from her, so I‘ll have to do a lot of phonecalls after the easter weekend.
It still feals weird, but it took a part away from my impostor syndrome. I now have a first professional opinion who reassured my suspicions.