In the last few years, my symptoms have improved in one area (task completion) but have severely worsened in another: short term memory. In fact, it's become so bad that I can't even remember what I just said a moment before 9 times out of 10, not just what others may have said....
What follows is a repost (as a thread) what I wrote not too long ago (as a comment) because it bears repeating. Many of us struggle with task completion and carry around a ton of grief and guilt because of it. HOWEVER, we should reframe all of that, which this post is a reminder to try to do. Good luck, everyone....
I was chatting with a friend and tried to convey how crippling a really bad day (for me at least) can be. I needed tangible examples that really drive the point home. So I started making a list....
I'm trying to teach myself to use the godot engine to create a game, and god is it hard to concentrate. I don't really know how to begin, even after following the tutorial, and I'm second guessing myself constantly about what step I should take to make progress or even broaden my knowledge and understanding, and it's a constant...
This explains why sometimes I'll research something or study German on my days off instead of playing a video game. I thought I was "wasting" my day off and not properly relaxing. Instead, I was letting my brain off its leash to do what it wanted and that's what it picked. That task was actually relaxing for my brain at that...
I wasn't able to get it checked out earlier in my adult life due to being a independent contractor for so long (american healthcare.... yay). Now though, I've got the time and the insurance to cover everything. It's actually a relief to know that it's not just me being incompetent....
For me its when someone tells me to bring them something. If i try to find something that i need, i will find it really quickly. If someone is asking me to find something for them in a room, it is like i become blind and even if its in front of me, it is really hard to find it.
This whole lecture is close to 3 hours long, but incredibly informative! The best educational primer on ADHD I have come across. I learned a lot about myself, and what I wish my parents had known when I was growing up.