AkaBobHoward

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

100% agree, the hate is the point not the policy. It is a virtue signal to her deplorable people to say see I hate them just right now give me money.

This rhetoric has and will continue to get people hurt and killed.

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

I am a relatively recent transplant from the red place, I can tell I ain’t in Kansas anymore, actual good information being up voted so cool.

Aspartame is, because of all the claims against it, the single most studied food substance known, and it seems to somehow keep coming okay. There are a lot of studies with really bad methods that were a smear job attempt but science doing what it does they were labeled for what they are and disregarded. Is it possible to be allergic and a reaction to be anxiety sure, but that is not on the food.

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

I think Lennybird may have worded that in an unfortunate way, but there is a point, the MAGAt crap is designed to exploit mental illness and nurodivergence. The thought process it takes to believe the junk that comes from them is truly magical, and that level of mental gymnastics requires an amount of breakdown of skill or deep religious belief, and while that is not All mental illness I can see where someone on the outside could look into that camp and see only mentally ill people and just put together a very very bad and frankly hurtful phrase.

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

I agree, but have hope that with the olive branch education can begin, at that may bring understanding.

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

The mistake is an understandable one, this man and his minions are greatly and rightfully hated. Many of us have grown up with mental illness as a boogieman myself included and still regularly hear it bandied around as an adjictive. You heard from many, correct as you saw fit and apologized. That took courage and wisdom. Thank you.

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

I agree again, but the attempt was good, and the recognition of wrong doing is even better. I am in a good mood today and am exhilarated to see people given the chance to grow.

I have to say on a different day I may have had a much different response to this. I guess such is mental illness and developmental disability.

I typically get so angry to see myself placed with the likes to trump and his crowd of pathetics.

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

That is unfortunate, with a more clear picture, this looks more like someone that has chosen to allow mental health to be an excuse for poor behavior rather than a reason for it. I would argue this is equally as bad.

I do not argue mental health as an excuse, I have my struggles and set backs in that arena but it doesn’t give me permission to be an awful person, I do think there is a vulnerable population that can be prayed upon due to a tendency toward credulity, or having been relentlessly bullied that now they want to find a group to belong to, and in that group they want to find some form of secret knowledge that the masses are not aware of, like a secret shadow government that is really in charge. So when they are proven right they can have a great I told you so moment they have wanted all their life.

So again I say looking in from the outside mental illness often looks the same and is poorly understood if it is understood at all even by those that live with us and care for us. From the tone that op seems to be taking they are starting to feel piled up on and is shutting down to just definsiveness. I suggest perhaps they need exposure to more people and the stigma of mental illness may be at play. I am sure many people in their life has a struggle or even a diagnosis, but it is not appropriate to talk about so they may never know.

Sorry for rambling, just really have a lot of thought on this, and rarely get to talk about it. Very much a fascinating subject.

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

I can see your point, and for my part understand your grievance, however I think you are asking too much and expect to much. This is a stranger on the Internet talking to a stranger on the Internet exactly like you and I. You have absolutely no reason to care about my opinion about this, and likely won’t.

I want you to know I understand, I really do and I would have the same type of reaction on other days. For some reason my wound isn’t so raw today. I hated seeing that statement it was painful, just like when someone in my family uses the r word at me. I don’t know if maybe the fight in me has just started to die on this one.

I am autistic and homosexual with a list of mental health conditions that come from a lifetime of masking both of them plus trauma and som other shit, wanting dignity is exhausting, I don’t know your situation but I am guessing you fully understand the stress of looking over your should for fear of the consequences of someone noticing something you can’t turn off.

I hope you don’t think I have been trying to argue, I am more just wanting someone to talk to, if I added to your frustrations I am sorry! Truly!

AkaBobHoward, 5 months ago

You were very right, if only because I needed the conversation, but honestly having such a slight difference of opinions and not letting it blow way out of proportion felt good too. I don’t get to really talk often.

I gained a lot today, and out of anything I hope you got something, I take heart in knowing you were not realistically expecting a whole change from them. I hope a seed was planted and perhaps a heart was softened.

Thanks for the engagement today.

AkaBobHoward, 6 months ago

I worked in or around public health for a long time. You just broke off a piece of my heart, and fired my rage center. That is all too true, and all too ignored. The truth is never told and if it is it is not believed.

Thank you for saying this, I only hope it makes others just as sad and as enraged as it does me.

AkaBobHoward, 6 months ago

I am not one to ask for trust from strangers on the Internet so take this as you will. I have seen true triumphs in the adoption/foster system, but much more often it goes very badly. I have seen good families destroyed, and individuals broken, I don’t mean to poison that well, I want that system to work, but right now they are so underfunded and understaffed that there is no way for them to be effective, and the religious route is laughable at best, those organizations are charitably described as preditory, I have other words but they don’t belong in polite conversation.

AkaBobHoward, 6 months ago

I know it isn’t much of a response, I know we do what we can. If I could I would hug you, we could sob together, but Keep up the fight, Vote if you can, make your voice heard, don’t stop being that thorn in the side that keep attention where it is needed instead of on that shiny thing over there. And I promise to do the same!

AkaBobHoward, 6 months ago

You have to love the troll I usually just 👉 😂 and move on, but you are spot on, hypocrisy runs deep, and I get, words for the reaction and all. The unfortunate thing is there are people so misinformed they believe this stuff, do I believe OP is one, not for a minute. Will others see this and think their misguided view is valid, absolutely.

AkaBobHoward, 6 months ago

I was a boost user for reddit, and when it finalized for Lemmy I had to “launch the rocket” 🚀 (get it again) I loved it over there and it is getting awesome here, as for privacy, I honestly don’t know, and I know that is probably the worst thing I could say here. I was so angry with reddit about the greed and all it just felt right to keep supporting boost. I am rather noob to the privacy concerns and I am learning.

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

Cyndi Lauper, no matter how bad it got for me when I was little, and it got really bad. I could count on her to be “right there waiting, time after time” and to see my “true colors” I know that sounds stupid, but I would get my tape and my walkman, go and hide in the dog house with Tramp, he would sleep next to me, and Cyndi would sing to me and I would sing with her, and it was okay for a few minutes, I was safe. Nothing existed but Cyndi’s voice and the warmth of Tramp’s body, it was almost like it could be okay.

So Cyndi Lauper, she was always inspiration to keep going, it could be okay if I could hear her voice.

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

I know the bad parts, but there are good things too. I am not opposed to Google, I use a lot of their services, and they are so ubiquitous that is near impossible to not use something they are connected to if you know it or not.

I find a lot of the apps and services very useful and if I find a useful alternative I will try it, but for now I am happy.

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

It is a group, it is a regular thing, I typically attend to be a helper, this time I needed to share, it didn’t go well. I don’t want to call them out, it is laypeople but there is a therapeutic aspect to the group.

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

Don’t know if anyone cares, I am on the onion site, it is slow (and that may be at my end) but working.

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

Would this be the same hot? I am not a cold brew person myself.

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

Yeah, this was not my best idea, but it was a good place to start lol 😁

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

Thank you for this, I have always been a person that has learned from other’s mistakes, and the comments here have sufficiently put me off the idea of powders. I have been toying with the Idea of making my own. I like the idea of choosing the ingredients and getting to experiment some. I like some flavors that are not year round so I will be able to mix them when I want them too so big bonus.

Also thanks for the encouragement, I am well on my way in the last 8 years I have gone from ~480+ to 260 now I need some muscle 💪

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

I haven’t heard of that one yet I will look into it. Thanks for the suggestion.

AkaBobHoward, 7 months ago

I am curious, I know this is an old post, but did you ever find anything that fit the bill? I have been looking for something similar as well and have zero programming skills to make my own (with blackjack)