Even though I’ve been through bouts of manic depression I’d still say right now is the worst mental state for me at the moment. I’ve really surpassed the threshold where I want it to end but don’t want to really die, to just being apathetic.
When I got a boyfriend I was kicked out by my parents and forced to move to a state I didn’t want to go to during COVID, where we got kicked out by my boyfriends parents after a year. Only for my own parents to offer me a place to stay again, but at their second “retirement” house for 10 years. So I move to an even worse state away from all my family and friends for this opportunity, and only realized when I got here how bad this state is.
House is constantly falling apart with some parts so old it was a struggle to find anybody to fix it. I was forced to quit my decent paying job that I actually liked of 6+ years because (even though I transferred) I didn’t jive with anybody and absolutely could not stand the way the place was run. It was quit or suicide that’s how awful the job was. Which had me get another job making less money than the first job I ever held at Walmart over a decade ago. Only to face random discrimination, schedule cuts, and then silently being fired. And again, I was not clicking with anybody in this place. I realized I didn’t get along with almost any people here, the national pastime is drinking alcohol and I’ve yet to see a single person with remotely similar interests to me. Aside from my BF it’s been lonely.
This is all bad enough but then Christmas year 3 rolls around and my parents show up on Christmas and evict me. Yes evicted by my own parents on Christmas. They gave me 3 months to leave with no offer to let me come home, fully willing to let me just become homeless in South Carolina. I should mention my parents are extremely well off, getting new cars every year, going on vacations across the country, upgrading their house all the time. Meanwhile I’m almost disabled (chronic illness) and have been working my ass off with no prospects of ever making enough money to live comfortably.
In addition to all this the world is slowly cooking alive and the only people that can do anything just won’t because of profits. Donald Trump is somehow not only a free man but allowed to run for president. He’s a legitimate cult leader but our education is so bad, and the parasocial relationship is so strong very few people actually see it that way. Books are getting banned, women’s and trans rights are being stripped, gun violence in America is so bad I’ve become extremely paranoid and don’t wanna leave the house. The cost of everything is rising in the name of profits and the government just sits back and watches as a majority of Americans die, struggle to pay bills, and stay fed.
And nobody talks about this in real life for some reason, maybe it’s due to the volatile nature of Trump supporters so we all walk on eggshells, but I’ve yet to meet a single person outside of New York that had a brain on these issues. Most people seem to just live their lives and never really think about it. They worry about petty nonsense like how much they can’t stand Stacy in the other department or how much of a bitch their neighbor is. People treat these petty issues with military-like seriousness, seemingly oblivious to the world crumbling around them, and I just don’t get it. I wish I could be that happy and clueless that the biggest issue plaguing my life is what my coworker was doing last week. I don’t want every conversation I have to be about the depressing state of the world, but I’m also REALLY not worried about this petty stuff anymore. Talk to me about some real shit like the time you went hiking and fell 30 feet breaking your leg, that’s something I want to actually engage with.
I could go on forever but honestly this is already way too long. Hopefully we all make it.
SBMM will never be able to stop cheaters, just look at The Finals (game with basically zero anti-cheat) competitive modes right now, completely ruined by cheaters. There are some cheaters in almost every rank of most multiplayer games. Wether it be low rank smurfs or top 100 players, there’s going to be at least one cheater somewhere in your rank, but most likely multiple. I have a combined total of 14,000 hours in counter-strike, I’ve played at every MM skill level from silver elite to global elite and have run into cheaters at least once in all of the ranks.
Spoiler___ Does sleeping with Minthara, then breaking her neck, lock you out of other romances? Is it possible to break her neck, then trigger Astarion’s romance scene later in Act I? Can you romance Astarion/Shadowheart/Lae’zel in Act II after sleeping with Minthara?
This is an interesting question, in my 600 hours the only characters I’ve seen have romance starting dialogue outside of the Act 1 party is Lae’zel and Shadowheart. Lae’zel got an exclamation bubble above her head after I fought the owlbear, where she basically says what she says at the party but potentially sooner than the party (this didn’t trigger the sex scene till the night of the party even though she asked way before). And Shadowheart gets a dialogue that says something like “I feel we missed a chance to connect” but I’ve only seen that dialogue actually appear a handful of times, I imagine if you kill Minthara you won’t be in a relationship and thus the dialogue should trigger for you, though I might’ve actually been in the shadowlands actually when I got it, I don’t recall exactly. Wyll will try to seduce you with a dance in Act 2 which I believe starts his romance. But I’ve never been able to start a romance with Karlach, Gale, Lae’zel, & Astarion post Act 1 if I didn’t ask during the party.
Thinking about doing another run with a single class party. My first thought is druid, because between the subclasses you can get a good mix of healing, AoE, and tanking. What other classes might work? Is there enough gear to go around for this to work?
I am trying to find out if you can still recruit Minthara if you go through the underdark instead of taking the mountain pass. Everything online says to take the pass but no one mentions the underdark. And if you try to google Minthara recruitment all the results are about destroying the grove....
Minthara’s recruitment only relies on the fate of the Grove and if she’s alive of course. You can take either direction, or even do both, which is what I usually do for extra XP.
Fun fact about the companion quests, what descisions you make as the player will change what your companions do if you let them make their own descisions. For example, if you side with the goblins and destroy the grove then Shadowheart will actually not reject Shar if you let her make her own decision.
I actually got surprised myself on another playthrough just yesterday where I was doing pure evil, but she decided to spare the nightsong anyway, which didn’t happen last time I did an evil playthrough. Maybe it’s random in some way, or maybe there’s a dialogue you need to have during some point that I missed this playthrough. I do know if you destroy the grove she becomes clearly upset about it during the party in camp, but I neglected to speak to Shadowheart almost entirely this playthrough so it’s possible I missed some dialogue trigger. I’m not sure myself now
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What is the worst mental state you've ever been in?
I already know the replies are gonna make me feel sad 😭
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Dark Urge romance question
Spoiler___ Does sleeping with Minthara, then breaking her neck, lock you out of other romances? Is it possible to break her neck, then trigger Astarion’s romance scene later in Act I? Can you romance Astarion/Shadowheart/Lae’zel in Act II after sleeping with Minthara?
Ideas for a single class party?
Thinking about doing another run with a single class party. My first thought is druid, because between the subclasses you can get a good mix of healing, AoE, and tanking. What other classes might work? Is there enough gear to go around for this to work?
Question about party recruitment (act 1 and 2 spoiler)
I am trying to find out if you can still recruit Minthara if you go through the underdark instead of taking the mountain pass. Everything online says to take the pass but no one mentions the underdark. And if you try to google Minthara recruitment all the results are about destroying the grove....
My reaction varies quite a bit. (lemmy.world)