Yeah, I say my life is chaotic but that is by and large my own doing. For years now I’ve lived each day as if it were disjointed from the next. And that’s a lot of why I’m here in the hole I’m in.
Years ago when I was homeless and kinda gave a fuck about myself, I could actually do things like pay a phone bill every month.
And I’m hoping that once I beat malnutrition, if that ever happens, I’ll be able to have the mental wherewithal to start creating content, which will broaden my fundraising abilities.
It’s amazing how extreme the inhumanity can be. For instance, a couple days ago I couldn’t fucking walk, so I sat on the sidewalk, leaning against a wall. Some dude had just refused to help me get ibuprofen (I offered to pay for it) because he “wasn’t going that way” (he “appreciated me” though, so I guess it’s all fucking great). This fucking yuppie shitwad on a Lime scooter said “Have you tried not being homeless?” as he whizzed on by.
There’s this little part of me that would love to show these insects how it feels to be chronically malnourished, or how it feels to have the shit kicked out of you by the very sort of person you thought was beneath you. But that isn’t me. I don’t want that to be me, anyways.
But if someone put a [hiss] in this cartoonist’s [silence] and set it off with his [beep] and [beep] in the [quack], I would just shrug.
I’m not a drug addict spiraling into nothingness—I’m winning my battle against sobriety, and the futility of entropy (I just thought the second thing sounded cool).
I was into the Palestinian liberation movement before I was even a socialist (when I was 16 or whatever I was a Ron Paul gooner). It’s probably the thing that made me realize—oh damn, literally everything I’m being told about the world outside the imperial core is a fucking lie. I fucking saw the Jeffrey Epstein thing coming from a mile away—one of my former roommates dead ass woke me up to tell me the news and I lost my shit. hot goth chick intern punts me in the back of my head with a broom stick What I’m trying to get at here is, holy fuck I’ve become such an apathetic lazy coward. Time to fucking change that.