porcelain

porcelain, 9 months ago

Thank you for saying that, I am feeling a bit better now ☺️.

Ooh that sounds good I think I might try listening to them.

Wow I find it so hard to mediate but I love mindfulness. It’s been too hot lately but sitting outside staring into space feels super nice.

How long did you meditate for?

porcelain, 9 months ago

Woo! That’s really nice to hear! You’re really lucky haha I remember for me during my first week while my body was getting used to it I was feeling really nauseous and couldn’t sleep lol.

Also like @FlyingSquid said I agree you should be careful as it is unusual to be feeling better that quickly. There are many reasons that could happen tho, the obvious one is placebo (but who cares really if you’re feeling better); second one is that the desicion to go get antidepressants has had a positive benefit to your life and made you feel like you want to make even more progress, in turn increaseing your happiness; third one is mania (extreme euphoria) which is extremely unlikely, but a dangerous potential side effect of anti-depressants and you probably need to call an ambulance if this happens; and finally fourth one is that it really has just worked extra quickly for you, which is unlikely but not impossible!

So whatever the reason is I’m glad it’s working out for you, just be mindful of your emotions but don’t worry too much as you’ll probably be able to tell if something is seriously wrong.

Good look for the future :)

porcelain, 9 months ago

Yep! 40mph which feels fast bc you’re really low the ground. Definitely recommend for a fun day out haha.

Yes it did I’m always scared about it fading throughout the day and it’s been nice bc most of the time it doesn’t happen, meaning I feel less anxious about it and also check the mirror less.

porcelain, 9 months ago

Tbh I think if this genuinely happened and I just found out right now, I would just start walking and not stopping. I would think I’d be the most mindful and alert I have ever been in my life and I wouldn’t want to waste that. I also imagine I would also probably be extremely nice to everyone. Like someone’s walking in the rain or something and I’d just hand them the coat I was wearing for them to keep. It would look really weird lol but I think that’s the kind of hyper-selflessness that you’d just do without even a thought if you knew you were about to die.

Thanks for asking this question btw it’s very intriguing. It makes me wonder if it’s even remotely possible to live each day like it’s your last y’know.

porcelain, 9 months ago

That was really insightful tysm for replying. I feel like you’ve thought about this before haha.

Yeah I think you might be right, sometimes it feels like a day’s been wasted because I didn’t spend it exactly how I envision a good day, but there are different kinds of good. Every experience and feeling is unique and it’s hard to say that one experience or feeling is objectively better than another.

Also I like your phrasing ‘happy to live’, it sounds like contendedness which I do believe is possible unlike permanent happiness. Have you heard of that infinite happiness machine thing btw?

porcelain, 9 months ago

Tbh I’m not sure lol. Personally I’ve struggled with a lot of mental health issues since I was young so I’m finding it hard to say whether we should live life to its fullest or just accept the feeling of finally feeling ok. What do you consider meaningless btw?

porcelain, 9 months ago

Mhm, I don’t know if this happens to you but everyone tells me that my worrisome body part looks completely normal and it makes me think that they must be right but at the same time, when i see it exposed I just look completely different and it’s so confusing.

Also - assuming you want to wear one but feel you can’t - I hope you feel amazing wearing a skirt one day

porcelain, 9 months ago

It’s so weird how colours seem to matter so much. It’s like lighting as well

porcelain, 9 months ago

Mhm, you might be right. But imo it’s nice to hear about any kind of progress even if it might end up not working because at the end of the day it’s one step closer to finding a cure and ofc that would be amazing.

Also sorry to hear you have Crohn’s btw. I don’t have it but ik someone who does and I know it’s a real pain for eating :(.

porcelain, 9 months ago

That’s okay! I hope it might come in useful to you or someone else :).

And thank you so much for taking the time to comment!

porcelain, 9 months ago

I’m so glad it’s helped you ☺️. Do you think it would be beneficial or link it in the sidebar of the community?

porcelain, 9 months ago

Yes absolutely. I’ve had a quick look at the site and it seems credible, not to mention I think I’ve heard it recommended before so it sounds like a really good idea to me :) thank you for your input!

porcelain, 10 months ago

Yay! That does sound like good progress I’m proud of you! It’s so nice when you feel your therapist understands you right? I hope you continue to like them. And well done for getting things together I know how much effort that can take :) Glad you’re on an upswing!

porcelain, 10 months ago

Thank you so much it’s nice of you to say that! And thank you for commenting! Hopefully we can make this community into an sympathetic, active and friendly place. I’ve never managed a community before so I’m very open to suggestions on how we can improve and grow the community so just to let you know if you have any thoughts please feel free to let me know!

porcelain, 10 months ago

It absolutely is :). I’m just happy to think that this community may be able to help people who are suffering from this awful disorder. And thank you for thanking me!