Yeah, I’ve been often told to make lists but the habit never really stuck with me. I guess it’s time to change that
I’ve spent a lot of my life trying to hit an expectation target that is often times manufactured in my own head, or just completely unknown and I’m worrying for nothing.
I feel this so much, it’s scary how reality is often so different from my own perception. I realized it recently and I’m starting to suppress these thoughts entirely, unless I have explicit evidence of what people expect of me.
I always try to tell myself that no one is getting anything from me if I’m not healthy and supported myself, so fixing that comes first.
That is definitely true, unfortunately when you are in the loop it’s easy to forget that. I guess I need to talk and express how I feel more to solve that.
Thanks a lot for your comment. Also amazing instance name lol