Thank you for that explanation! I’m sorry you are overwhelmed, but really happy you get your schooling paid for, that’s important. Do you know what you are going to study?
I think it’s so interesting how we humans act in situations where something unexpectedly good happens. It’s not always an excited reaction followed by inspired action, is it? I think anxiety is so normal in your position, I’d feel it too. I don’t know how it’s going to work for you, but when I went to grad school at 36, I started feeling motivation and recovering my work ethic once I got into the courses and excited about the subjects. before getting there, I totally felt some dread. Maybe the same will happen for you once you start?