From your post history and this post too, it really does sound to me like you have some form of paranoia. It might help you if you were able to see a psychiatrist and maybe go over the stories you’ve shared here. There may be a treatment that can really help you and make a positive impact on your life.
I know some people are really apprehensive about being checked for a mental illness or taking medication or treatments for one, but I can personally attest that it can really help you live a more fulfilling life.