I googled it and found nothing. Can you provide a source for your claim? I’m not saying you are wrong but you claim it’s super easy to find, and it’s not.
You’re making me think of all the drug commercials that says “Don’t take this drug if you are allergic to this drug.” Bitch, how do I know if I don’t take it first?
Way to go! What you are describing could potentially be a result of serious trauma - no way to tell without a professional assessing you. You may want to look for someone who uses parts work therapy, like internal family systems or ego states therapy. And of course someone who specializes in DID. Please don’t ever write yourself off as “broken” or anything like that. You absolutely can get better!