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MaJ1, 6 months ago to weirdfolks

#MorningAll & #TZAG G’day Squirrel Fans,

Bit late, but I’ve out for a walk again & been chatting with my bestie!
Project WOOF advances by another 12k steps 😊

Have a great #Friday & remember #RuleOne: Don’t get caught!
😊🫶🐿️🖖
@weirdfolks
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MaJ1, 6 months ago to weirdfolks

Good night Squirrel fans, ta for joining me today. 😊

In a desperate attempt to meet my bedtime deadline, & also setup Sleep mode on the phone I’m off to bed early!

Shout out to @DoubleTreble & @Cbfoley who both need some hugs, no questions asked ! 🤗🥰

I leave you with this to ponder:

What did all the animals on the Ark eat?

😊🫶🐿️🖖
@weirdfolks
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This evenings diary entry is here:

https://beige.party/

Tim_McTuffty, 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 25 Thursday 23/11/23

TL:DR I need a bright sunny day please Mr. Weatherman! ; I have been too long without a close friend , now I have one my inner child is reluctant to share them with others & has been sent to the naughty step to reconsider this opinion! ; I was struck by how much further I still have to go!

A grey & grisly day today, with that horrible cold rain that is just heavy enough to make walking really unpleasant , so me being the big wuss that I am decided that dryness was the better side of valour & stayed in.

Mrs Squirrel was out & about again today, it really seems that currently being on my own is fairly calming & helps me relax.

My bestie was out & about all over the place helping her parents so that kinda put the kibosh on gaming & or chatting with her for most of the day, but that is my selfish side talking, I am one of many friends she has & I need to remember that when I am disappointed that she is otherwise engaged !
Yes I am that distanced for socialising, I have been a virtual hermit for something like 5 years , the whole having close friends who wanna spend time with me is a bit of a novel experience !
I did sort out my EA online account , it took some major tinkering & the creation of a new email account , but we got there in the end !
Next time she wants a gaming session we can try ‘It takes 2’ together ! Huzzah !

Managed to catch up with my friend last thing before she went to bed, a brief laugh with her then good night. 😊

No news on the DA referral front but then I wasn’t really expecting any just yet .

Final Thoughts:
Hey getting this out a little earlier as I’ve actually started to do bits thru the day!

SAD & agoraphobia are still big things, the weather today just reinforced my current disinclination to leave the house. Well I honestly didn’t think things would be resolved overnight !

I have found an ND friend who understands a lot of what I am facing & allows me to help them as much as I can with the problems they face thru their autism & ADHD .
I have other close friends online but I feel too nervous to engage with them to the same extent as they are NT & I feel (possibly incorrectly) that they will find me too strange or too shy, 3 people have blocked me for being too me I guess, this discourages me from getting too close.

As with everyone life is a mix of light & darkness , I am fortunate that my ASD journey is allowing more light in & making the darkness less frightening!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney, 6 months ago to medical

#Journal of a silly Dutch Pixy 🧚🏼‍♀️

So, yesterday (Wednesday) was a bit different than the past 10 weeks or so... I don't have group on Thursday anymore which means mum and I can resume out groceries shopping in Germany on Thursdays again, instead of Wednesday.

I got up a wee bit before the alarm. It was very cold, well, cold enough for me. I got dressed and prepared Arwen's food. We went for walkies and then I finished Arwen's meal. She got a snack on the couch and I headed to the gym.

Got on the scale first and it was super kind to me! Compared to my measurements of the 12th (10 days ago) I lost 1,5 kilos. I definitely had not expected that. 😊
I started with some arm exercises, even though it should be leg day. Just wasn't up to them I guess. After some arm training I got to the seated bike for my usual simple ride. Then, I felt OK enough and I hit some of the leg exercises that I should have started with. But hey, doing them now so good on me!

Then I got home and had some breakfast. Let Arwen out for a pee and then I did something totally weird to most 😂. I hate the long, green, bits of leak in my food. I had gotten a big bin of Nasi Goreng from the supermarket. It was enough for two meals. So I got two smaller bins and... I slowly devided the big one over the smaller ones, trying to scoop out all the leeks I could find. And yeah, I did measure the weights to be sure they were as equally devided as possible. 😂

I got to my hometrainer next. I wanted to ride 90+5 minutes but I got distracted so I ended with 98 minutes. It was just on a low setting due to my muscles struggling, but I rode it nevertheless and it felt good. 😊

After washing up and getting dressed again, we went for our 3km walkies with our friend and their dog. The weather was cold but fortunately also dry. Then I went onwards to the Lidl, as I'd not been able to go on Monday, as I usually do. When I got back I fixed some food and then got to the treadmill. I walked slowly for an hour. It felt very long and I was bummed I could not go a bit faster. But again I had to remind myself that it was a 60% kinda day the way my muscles felt, so I had to relax.

On my way back from the Lidl a dear friend called me and we had a nice chat as I was going about my groceries. Ow after that I took them to the voting area across the street as I felt I should vote for the House of Representatives this time around.
They were still chatting with me when I started my treadmill walk, after I had some food. My food was crunchy so I apologized for my eating sounds often 😂.
After a bit we said goodbye and I was almost done with the treadmill walk then. So that had been nice. Some Downton till my hour was up.

I walked Arwen and got stuff ready for some coop gaming with a dear friend later on. Unfortunately they had some issues with their account and we had to play another game. Not that bad, it was still fun! Just not what we'd both been aiming for. 😊 I started yawning and kept it going throughout the game! I guess I must have yawned their ears off!!

That always happens when it's in the afternoon and I sit down to relax. My body goes into a "you're not moving so let's yawn because you already did a lot" mode and it's kinda annoying. I hate yawning all the time, especially when I'm at a voice chat and trying to play a game...

Around 4 we closed up the game and before saying goodbye, my friend just vanished 😂! Haha! I got a big sorry text about that. I just laughed and said it was OK. I got ready for bed with the usual bits that I do. When Arwen and I went out, of course it started to rain. Just some drizzle but still kinda annoying. My bed was nice and cozy when I slipped in and I don't think I had loads of time to read before I dozed off... 😴

#PixysJourney

Tim_McTuffty, 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 24 Wednesday 22/11/23

TL:DR Back to War & Peace I’m afraid Kevin 😆 ; Busy days , with good outcomes help to motivate me to dig myself out of this cycle of depression & ill health! ; EA are a pain in the bum!; Nuggan bless the Besties of this world!

My days are stupidly busy at the moment , which is really good, as on the whole I am enjoying the activities that are taking up my day.

However it is meaning that squeezing time in to do everything I want to is getting challenging!

Getting up at 4am is taking some getting used to, or rather , as I said yesterday, getting to bed on time is taking some getting used to - “I’ll just read that last toot” is the sticking point at the moment 😂

I like getting up so early, I say getting up , its currently waking up & catching up with my bestie then getting out of bed when Mrs Squirrel stirs. The early morning is quiet & peaceful, there is no stress, little urgency & almost total silence .

I tooted about Project WOOF (War On Our Flab!) the other day, & I made a massive step (or number of steps) towards getting this properly underway today.
I voluntarily, with very little persuasion from my bestie , went for a walk !
Agoraphobia conquered for the day ✅
Fresh air breathed ✅
9000+ steps ✅ ✅
Didn’t die of exhaustion ✅

I think I was out for about an hour , & walked about 75% of the way up the highest hill in the valley!
i am very pleased with this !

Got home to find that, even though certain peeps were working from home ,washing dishes was not on the agenda . Hey ho.

Rediscovered that I am totally OCD about stuff going back in the right place in the kitchen , not in fact the nearest resting place in to the dishwasher!
Trigger triggered ☑️
Trigger recognised & frustration channeled into productive activity ✅

So the plan after lunch was to get some gaming time in on ‘It Takes 2’ with CDP 🧚‍♀️
However the Universe had other plans.
EA online account - ‘password has expired , please reset’
Old email a/c
30 minutes of trying to get said email account accessed = fail!
Ok setup new EA account - ok
Link new EA account/c to PSN = FAIL - PSN already linked to an existing account !
Happily no solid objects close enough to the recliner to allow banging head to the point of unconsciousness !
Meanwhile CDP 🧚‍♀️ is on the PSN party chat wondering if her friendly neighbourhood Squirrel doesn’t need a zimmer frame attached to his game controller !
Her mate Mel, joins in the general disbelief in the computing abilities of someone who used to configure Mainframes for a living !
In the end I admitted defeat & we played ‘Man of Medan’ for a couple of hours.

Then a few hours of catching up on here interspersed with the evenings repast & a bit of banal TV that Mrs Squirrel likes & is boring enuf for me to keep a casual eye on but still socialise on Mastodon.

Final Thoughts:
I need a schedule !
I need to put the devices to bed at 21:30 not 22:00 because otherwise I’m losing a critical ½ hours sleep!
I need to update my email addresses when I bin off old email a/cs !

I am slowly coming to terms with being autistic, (please Nuggan the Diagnostic Assessment agrees ! )
In doing so I am starting to tackle some long term problems & ,whilst there is still a way to go, conquering the Agoraphobia & the whole not liking to talk to folk on the phone !
Having a bestie to support & be supported by is awesome !
When the PS5 dies I’m getting a ES/9000 or current equivalent , I can’t cope with these tiny computers !! 😂 - Erm does anyone know of a cheap datacentre somewhere ? 😜😂

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

MaJ1, 6 months ago to weirdfolks

#MorningAll & #TZAG

G’day Squirrel Fans,

Sky is grey & overcast , with intermittent cold rain, my least favourite type of weather , save for heavy rain - which I hate !

However we shall attempt to progress with Operation WOOF & get a walk in in a bit!
There may be pics, give the camera on the new phone a proper work out.

Have a great #Wednesday & remember #RuleOne: Don’t get caught!

😊🫶🐿️🖖
@weirdfolks
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PixysJourney, 6 months ago to random

OK, something silly just came to my mind... (be aware this happens quite frequently 😂).

OK, so three things about me:

1. I don't get that many meltdowns but when they happen, I'm the worst person on the world. I'll always feel sorry after but that never changes the things that happened during said meltdown.

2. I am very stubborn and have super low self esteem. I struggle accepting compliments and I even struggle more with believing them, however often I hear them.

3. I can be very obsessed about something at one point and really hyper focus on it. Then my obsession changes and my focus does as well. But often... It's a roulating system between several obsessions that I go through in phases (like my TV series).

Just something that popped up in my mind just now...

I was talking to a dear friend when I got those thoughts. And with their permission, I shared it here, as they thought it was about me anyway. 😊

I'll definitely have another "3 things about me" if I come up with some more things I'd like so share.

#PixysJourney #3ThingsAboutMe

MaJ1, 6 months ago to weirdfolks

Good night Squirrel Fans, off to bed now.

Thanks to all who have chatted with me today ! 🤗🥰

Please send hugs n luvs to @jacqui76 no questions asked 🤗🥰

I leave you with this question to ponder:

Which modern invention would you most like to get rid of & why ?

TTFN 😊🫶🐿️🖖

@weirdfolks #WeirdFolks #SquirrelsOfMastodon #TheMammutMoves

Tonights diary entry is here:

https://beige.party/

Tim_McTuffty, 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 23 Tuesday 21/11/23

TL:DR A much better day than expected , largely due to the support of my friends.
A positive , but disconcerting move towards a Diagnostic Assessment was made today , so all in all going to bed a much happier bunny than of late !

So another day with the house to myself has helped relax & chill me out a bit better.

There is much turbulence hidden under the seemingly calm surface of my most important relationship & I fear that key supports in its structure are less than stable. 😔

My mood was up enough to clean the bathroom, which is a chore I dislike enough to need a decent chunk of motivation to get going !

I also got brave enough to ring my Bestie again , this was partially driven by the fact that I know she has problems with her hands due to fibromyalgia & hyper-mobility that are exacerbated by being out in the cold. So chatting over the phone meant she didn’t have to try to type while she was out for a walk into town.
We had a good long chat, set the world to rights & had a good laugh as well. 😊

Getting used to my new sleep cycle is taking a toll, waking at 4am is fine with the alarm, but actually getting to sleep by 10pm is proving challenging , mostly because I’m addicted to Mastodon! 😂
Thus at about 4pm this afternoon when I wanted to get an hours gaming in I actually fell asleep 🙄🤦‍♂️

I want to end with some really promising news, I was contacted by a 3rd party MH provider today , I was initially suspicious because it was not the one I was expecting, but it turned out to be kosher & I’m 90% thru the registration process. I just need to get a copy of my id docs tomorrow & then send them off.

This is a major step forwards , this is related to my referral for a Diagnostic Assessment for my ASD , & timescales for it are so much better via the private sector thru the ‘Right to Choose’ NHS option.
I am conflicted with taking this route because it is helping privatise the NHS via a backdoor, but I cannot dispute that the 4 weeks waiting time is considerably better than the 2 - 3 year waiting times to access the NHS’s own mental health services! Right to Choose basically provides the benefits of going private while it simultaneously waives the hefty costs normally involved !

Final Thoughts:

I had dreaded the fallout from Sundays’ events, some of it is yet to fall , but I was expecting to be in mid-depressive slump by now, but , whilst I’m suffering some of the symptoms , the full on experience has been avoided!
I put this down to the support I have had from my friends on here & in particular my lovely , kind CDP 🧚‍♀️🥰
Chatting with my bestie, actually having a bestie once more , is a blessing. Having an ND bestie who understands where I am coming from & can empathise is almost unbeliveable, that we can support each other is really special !

Being 1 step closer (& a big step at that) to a DA so quickly has cheered me up enormously, I know that the path ahead is long & probably hard, but I am actually making serious progress ! 😊

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

MaJ1, 6 months ago to weirdfolks

#MorningAll & #TZAG

G’day Squirrel Fans,
so a cold morning on all fronts,in major bad books with AJJ after yesterday’s tiff, obviously I have no reason to be upset since I was all at fault 🙄🤦‍♂️

A Boomtown Rats song comes to mind!

On a more +ve note today is day 1 of WOOF ‘War on our Flab’, a major achievement will be getting to day 2!

Have a great #Monday & remember #RuleOne: Don’t get caught!
😊🫶🐿️🖖
@weirdfolks
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