IcedCoffeeBitch

@IcedCoffeeBitch@beehaw.org

A lesbian transfem that likes technology, Transformers, videogames, and much more :3

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how to cope mentally during gaps in HRT

I recently had an injection that seemed to go wrong (CW: blood, I inject EV subq and I hit something like a capillary, there was a lot of blood and it bruised badly afterwards). Within a couple days I felt unusually dysphoric as a result of what I assume was a failure for the oil to depot and slowly release over time....

IcedCoffeeBitch,

If it helps, it’s unlikely you hit a vein with SubQ injections, especially if you did it at 45 degree and especially if your needle is short enough and you aren’t hitting the muscle. So it’s a bigger chance you didn’t, and your E is fine, even if you got hurt. If you are with a doctor (or if you are on DIY then the doctor is yourself), talk with them about injecting more often (and maybe a higher dosage) just in case. For some people the ups and downs can cause mood swings and stuff. It’s also important to know mood swings are not reliable as estrogen indicators, since they are influenced by many factors. A better though not completely reliable option is (cw sex and AMAB genital mention)

spoilercheck on the semen on your masturbation, and compare a few days after the injection visually to what you produce the day of the injection. It should remain consistent, most but not all people on good E levels produce a kinda transparent, white-ish watery fluid.

Obviously though, the best way is blood test. But not everyone has that option sadly.

IcedCoffeeBitch,

It’s worth noting that quantity of semen can vary throughout your progress in HRT. In my case I produced little to almost none around the first 4 months but now (6 months) my semen is in much more quantity but more diluted. That seems pretty normal according to what other trans people go through, in fact you might eventually notice more pre-cum. Some say it could be related to cis women’s lubrication and your body trying to replicate that.

I would incline to say, based on what you say, maybe you are experiencing too little estrogen, but hopefully you are aware that self diagnosing has the problem of confirmation bias and placebo, which is the reason I don’t put them that much weight into them.

My advice is three things: first, next time you inject make sure you have at least one or two inches of fat between your fingers, if you don’t use another area like your tummy. Probably use 45 degrees especially if you’re on the skinny side; besides, imho I don’t get why people that want SubQ inject in 90 degrees anyways, afaik there are no advantages to it and only risks hitting muscle instead, and IM can hit a blood vessel. Second, if you haven’t had issues before this incident then perhaps you have nothing to worry about but make sure to keep in mind your blood test. Third, if it’s an option for you perhaps consider getting estradiol cypionate, or even better enanthate? Those have a longer half life than valerate so they might make your levels more consistent and you could inject less often (people on cypionate commonly inject weekly, and on enanthate every 10 days or even every two weeks).

IcedCoffeeBitch,

Yeah if your insurance covers HRT then it might be for the best to stick with valerate until you find a pharmacy. Sadly I don’t have any tips for getting it officially. I do DIY so I buy EEn from Otokonoko. If you are here then I assume you would avoid using Reddit lol, but you might have a better chance if you ask in one of their subreddits.

Honestly I’ve never injected in thighs and find the tummy more reassuring lol, to me I barely feel it there. Ig people sometimes are built different ig

Regardless, glad I could help :3

IcedCoffeeBitch,

This is super anecdotal and obviously does not apply to everyone. But I find interesting that at least a decent chunk of trans people, their pre-HRT levels tend to be outside the normal ranges.

In my personal case, it’s quite the opposite actually. My T was pretty much the 25% line (18 years old btw) with 422 ng/dl (14.63 nmol/L). So normal range if on the lower side. But my E is 112 pg/ml, which is twice as high as the male range and low-normal female range. And ever since I started on HRT my range has been wacky, with my E being way higher for the dosage I was getting. Granted, my case is sadly currently undiagnosed and it’s certainly not something I have ever heard from another person, but I do hear about stuff like that. Just kinda curious about how common it is.

IcedCoffeeBitch,

Is this real or just an edit?

IcedCoffeeBitch,

Looks like the “joke” is just thirsting

IcedCoffeeBitch,

… I think the dialogue cutscenes and the RPG fights count as a big chunk of the games, and those use drawings.

Interesting week for me...

I’ve read more of the gender dysphoria Bible and between thy, my therapist, and some other comments around here, I’ve finally had a few puzzle pieces finally fit into place and thy finally Feels pretty good. Like, to some extent I’ve further accepted my transness and just feel more at peace thinking about myself. It’s...

IcedCoffeeBitch,

The gender dysphoria bible is such an awesome resource. It 100% was what cracked my egg.

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    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    You hate twilight because it’s popular, I hate twilight because the relationships are toxic at best. We are not the same.

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Euphoria / dysphoria are a result from satisfaction / dissatisfaction out of something new you’re trying out gender related. Eventually you will feel less of those, and that’s ok. At the end of it all what matters is you feel comfortable about yourself. That you feel, you.

    I feel like makeup doesn’t do much to my face

    Title says it all, when I apply makeup it honestly looks like regular me, maybe with a smoother skin and less beard shadow. Lipstick helps to stand out more but idk, am I doing something wrong? On another note I don’t have blush or eyeliner (the one eyeliner I bought yesterday ended up being completely dried out so no luck...

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Looks like I’ll be buying eye makeup stuff next trip at the drug store. Ty!

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Ngl I kinda want to see that lmao

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Thanks for the motivation, I’m really gonna need it :3

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Noted! I do have some jeggings, maybe I should actually use them 😅

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Do you have some videos you recommend?

    And yeah it can be a bit tiring (transition in general can be), but ig I’ll learn one step at a time

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Ooo didn’t knew about the beard shadow thing! I found concealer kinda works for the beard shadow, but not completely. Maybe I should try that.

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Thanks everyone for the replies! I know they were a bit short since I’m kinda tired, but I really appreciate it

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Yes, you are absolutely right. I forgot to update here but I bought eyeliner (one that actually worked) and it was a night and day difference :D

    Also yes I have a friend that is helping me with makeup (tho from afar sadly, I send her pics and she gives advice) and it’s working out well.

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    I’m only 4 months on HRT, but before it I hated looking at old photos of myself. Now I find them…amusing? Like I know they’re me but they don’t feel like me, more like looking at some kind of lost brother xD Either way, even though I’m very early in transition I’m way more happier about how I look now :3

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    I really don’t like the idea that mono sexualities are just in denial. As a lesbian, there might be fictional men that I like but on real life, I just would rather not be with any guy. And it’s not like I ever tried looking at a guy to see if I find something attractive about him. But I just don’t. Kinda funny how only men that don’t exist appear attractive to me xD And compare that to women and enbies, where I just love everything: their hair, their soft face, their chest, makeup, their cuteness (and sometimes their hotness xD), the way they talk, the things they are most passionate about, and all the NSFW stuff too :D

    I understand the experience is not universal, it’s perfectly fine if attraction works for you some other way. But when I analyze my attraction it works two way. First, just the sheer association with women and enbies. I don’t have genital preference, I like women with either equipment, but I would never date (or even be attracted to) a trans man, even if they’re pre-everything. Just the mere fact of knowing they’re a man simply turns me off. And the same applies viceversa: if I learn that someone I know is actually a woman, even if they’re presenting male, no hormones, etc. it’s like my mind opens up the possibility to being attracted to them (even if to a lesser extent). Which brings me to my second point, hormones.

    I’ve heard this one from gay men too so I think I’m not alone in this one. When someone is taking E (or T in their case), it’s like everything changes regarding their physiology. Smell, skin, hair texture, shape, to name a few. And smell is a big one to me: manly smell might as well be repellent to me xD, but I know of people attracted to men that it is the entire opposite. And that’s ok! Physiological changes is not something that can’t be ignored for attraction either, after all we really don’t control what makes us tick, our brain is wired to determine what attracts us. I don’t make a conscious decision to find womanly smell attractive, my brain just responds to it positively.

    To clarify, I think most people could be bi/pan, I don’t disagree with that. But I disagree that everyone is bi. Or else, how do you explain that throughout history, gay and lesbian people, rather than going the “easy” route and date the opposite gender, dared to date the same gender despite persecution and potentially death? You would probably say something about how they could’ve been bi but they had a very marked preference, but to that I say, isn’t that gay enough?

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Sure, words can have subjective meaning that can change from person to person and even over time. So two people perhaps don’t completely agree what it means to be a lesbian. But the general idea usually is something that can be agreed upon. But what is the point of arguing against monosexuality in the first place? Because to me it sure sounds a lot like the “you haven’t found the right man” argument. Even if I was attracted to men and was in some kind of denial, like you implied in your first post, it doesn’t change the fact that I don’t want to date men, simple as that.

    Also I don’t think you argued concretely towards my historic argument? To me it makes it sound like you’re implying women willingly chose to be exclusively lesbians and men, exclusively gay, to fight for wlw and mlm rights. Which i can imagine some did, but certainly not everyone.

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    Are the axis you are referring to romantic, platonic, sexual, etc. attraction? Because I have no problem with those, but in that case I identify as a romantic and sexual lesbian.

    And yes I would say denial is a very strong word. It implies you know better about how a person feels than themselves.

    IcedCoffeeBitch,

    That’s great, if he stopped being a transphobe tho that would be even more cool

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