allthetimesivedied

They’re from Portland, Oregon you can’t make this shit up lol....

TW for suicide, and drugs....

Drug addicts/People who use drugs are probably the last marginalized social category that it’s totally OK to treat like shit. There’s a movement to promote drug users’ humanity and advocate for our civil rights (things like safe injection sites, safe supply, ending the War on Drugs), which is still in its very early...

I am not hallucinating. Holy shit what the fucking balls dude.

AMA I guess? idk.

This is Gregory....

cross-posted from: lemmygrad.ml/post/3326689...

I’m too embarrassed of myself to actually check but I am pretty darn sure that I’ve been sent, cumulatively over the however many months I’ve been panhandling here, over a thousand dollars, and it’s all just gone to stupid shit. I could’ve saved at least some of that and bought a fucking van already, and gotten my...

Yesterday I dead ass took a seroquel and went back to sleep after only about an hour and a half of being awake. Today I spoke to nobody except one of the annoying tweaker friends who woke me up. I’m slipping back into having mush brain because I’m once again not eating enough. It’s like fucking Flowers For Algernon but...

I’m not skeptical per se. I’ve just been propagandized so fucking much—I grew up watching those propagandocumentaries on the National Geographic Channel about the DPRK, etc., fr that was what I watched instead of cartoons lol....

It you’ve followed my posts at all, you know my life is very interesting: I’m a homeless trans/non-binary drug addict with an iPhone 12 Mini and a broken heart. Having been homeless 6 of the last 7 years, and certified, licensed drug addict for 4, I get nose-blind to how fucking wild my life really is....

Like holy shit no I’m not. I wish I could film myself all day every day because I know I talk fucking strange, make weird facial expressions, walk funny, move my head weird, etc., all things I want to work on, because I know people look at me like I’m a fucking alien, because these are all things I should have smoothed out...

I’m homeless. Originally I was planning on fundraising for a motel room but it’s 5 days, and I feel like that’s just a waste of money. Staying at motels makes me sad anyways....

I’m kinda fucking embarrassed by how every other post here is by me, but I’m starving so idk....

I often forget that with one exception I have never, ever, ever been happy with another living thing in the room. I hate speaking—I wish I had been born mute because the anxiety that’s been tied around my neck as long as I can remember makes everything come out wrong. I wish I hadn’t been Narcan’d. When I finally fucking...

I put off the food stamps thing, again, because I didn’t sleep well and felt like shit. I’d be in this same boat anyways if I had gotten them fixed, because my food stamps renew on the 2nd....

You may have seen my posts about this person I used to be friends with—I wish I could tell you their name, because it’s such a cool name, but alas, they will always be, to you, the person who won’t talk to me anymore, my ex-friend, or them....

Taken with my iPhone 12 Mini (I am not joking).

What happens when someone is chronically off and on starving for months, constantly stressed, and then all of the sudden you give them $300 for groceries? They buy sushi and iced tea and strawberries and other dumb shit and blow it in a week....

To everyone who sent me money: thanks....

I’m considering parceling out what’s left into small little doses that I’ll use to help me taper, or, better idea, keep a little emergency dose for when I CAN’T FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE MAN so I can have a tiny little managed relapse instead of like, telling my dealer about how I’m doing a couple days off, a couple days...

I’m staying at this motel another night, and I’m subsisting on snacks. It’s lame....

cross-posted from: hexbear.net/post/2654647...