Some people use the pain of RSD to find adaptations and overachieve. They constantly work to be the best at what they do and strive for idealized perfection. Sometimes they are driven to be above reproach. They lead admirable lives, but at what cost?
RSD sucks. If you're crippled by constant anxiety and meltdowns (like I was) or have anger management issues, guanfacine or clonidine can go a long way in managing the symptoms. It's really nice to not be constantly terrified of disappointing people.
I relate hard to the the stopping trying… so many things in life I’ve been too scared to do or try because I couldn’t deal with the potential reactions of me not being amazing at it the first time I try 😆
For me there’s so much anxiety bundled with it that I’d say it did a number to most of my life
Since I got diagnosed with ADHD and started taking meds it’s nowhere near as bad but it’s definitely still there, it’s just much easier to get out of the spiraling rut that my brain just loved to get into before I started my meds
It’s like with the meds the ruts aren’t such a magnet for my brain, they’re there but I’m more aware of them and that I’m heading towards one and I can pull my brain out of it
I swear getting on meds has been like finally getting a rudder installed on the boat of my life. The winds still push in their own directions but with the rudder I can at least influence it and at times steer it.
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