Partly because of my OCD feeding me intrusive thoughts about sexuality for most of my teens.
Our brains can be such a problem sometimes! Though to be fair we’re similar on that front, and it took me a while to come to terms with it as well. It’s likely because of the feelings either not being very strong or very consistent that you’re going to doubt them. OCD surely doesn’t help though.
Social tolerance: it’s… complicated? Irl I’m the type that starts out very reserved, but if I spend enough time with someone, something in my head clicks and then I never shut up when I’m with them.
Oh yeah, that’s definitely me as well. Always have trouble with people I don’t know because I’m not sure how they will respond to me. As soon as the baseline has been established and I feel comfortable they’re free game! 😅
finsexual maybe? Finromantic?
I’ll look into it, thanks!
I think that introversion/extroversion and reclusion/outgoingness are actually different spectrums. You can be outgoing but still need time alone to recharge your social batteries.
And this is exactly the kind of nuance I was looking for! Thanks for being critical. Framing it this way definitely helps to explain my weird love-hate relationship with other people. There might be a third dimension to it, but I’ll save that brainbreaker for another time.