Maybe there’s nothing wrong with me in a purely egalitarian sense, as in there’s nothing instrinsically wrong with anyone’s race. I agree.
My race is problematic specifically because of people who behave much more differently than me because of the way I look. From a quality of life perspective it would be better if I appeared less black.
I’m glad that you don’t think my nose size is weird. Get your friends from the lower mainland drunk enough and ask them their earnest opinion of black people.
My large nose is the biggest giveaway that I am black, very black. Reduce the size of my nose and I’m one step removed from looking like a black African. Maybe I should reduce the size of my lips? Maybe I need to do something with my skull or eyelids so less of my eyeballs show? Not sure, which is why I came here.
Therapy will make me feel good in the moment but it doesn’t change my reality. Even if I 3nd up spending 60k+ cad on these surgeries(I’ll likely be going to Turkey for the more invasive ones) it will pay off both from an economical standpoint and quality of life standpoint.
I know there’s a better forum for this somewhere, but it’s not exactly like raceswapping is in vogue yet. My uncle openly brags about how much lighter his skin is now and talks about the Lebanese women he pulled, my mother wonders where I got my massive nose from. Jamaicans hate the fact that they have dark skin and if you’re not “black” in a poorly developed african nation you are automatically assumed to be more competent. Therapy isn’t going to even recognize this as an issue, and it’s not something that I can fix alone.