Friendly suggestion to anyone reading this that many of your favorite artists are on SoundCloud and other platforms: it costs nothing to send them a message to say you love their music.
Direct platforms like bandcamp also make it feel so good to know most of every dollar is heading their way.
I like to think I’m somewhat aware emotionally but have a lot of unanswered messages that are hard to look at and just make me doubt my feelings. I’m lucky to have a few good friends, I know that it’s more than a lot of people have so I’m thankful to have them and my family: it still just stings since it was for so long and you think you know who you’re talking to.
That’s fair the survivor’s guilt is probably real. I think I’ve been really stuck in my own head about my feelings and situation I’ve been struggling with that understanding.
I think I need to think about this. Thank you for your perspective.
Yeah I think they gave me a lot to chew on and I really need to think about them too, I’ve probably been pretty blinded by my emotions and I have to navigate that.
I’ve been trying to separate my life between linkedin and actual social/messengers and that made me feel weirdly better just…not seeing a few names on my regular sites/programs. I don’t like that it made me feel better but it did.
Yeah quite a bit: gaming and going to bars and shows. I felt like I got pretty close to the people I worked with, not unprofessionally or party animal but just an ear and a shoulder.
You boot up your computer, you spend thousands over the course of 10 years to keep it up to date and worked hard in your career to be able to afford the hardware to play games on beautiful settings. It hums and the sound of the fans is a satisfying one that quickly fades when you open steam.
Your friends are all online but nobody ever seems to actually be, statuses from always on computers and cell phones giving way to fake signals and hope. Realizing it’s just going to be you it’s time to look through the diner menu that is steam. You scan your games and realize there’s nothing that really speaks to you so you open a new one you’ve been trying to make time for. 10 minutes into the game and interacting with the game you think to yourself how this wasn’t what you wanted and you save and again look through the menu.
You play ComfortGame, one you’re intimately familiar with to get a feeling of satisfaction doing well on something familiar. At first it feels warm and fuzzy like a deep nostalgia but that too fades and you realize it’s the same game you’ve always played: the disappointment hits you like frozen pizza.
You pause the game and look at the things you wanted to play and you realize that what you were looking for in the first place was a sense of belonging and favor in a world not your own you so desperately wish to wash from your mind. Then the true realization: it will not come. You’ve spent so much of your time trying to make it happen that you lost all the parts of you along the way that made it fun in the first place.
I guess what I’m trying to say here in a roundabout way is I just really hate sauerkraut.
I hope you find something near you that makes you feel the brief moment that is life to appreciate it outside its habitat. The darkness we can live in can make you strong enough to lift the crust to see the light in our moments of strength: of all people those in darkness are most fit to appreciate it and understand its absence from ourselves. I wish you as many moments as you can muster, brilliant you, as you are.
Hey all I know that our little corner of the internet is a small one but I’ve honestly loved the conversations and having some sort of “check in Wednesday” or something like that I think a lot of us could benefit from....
That’s an awesome community and I really like the idea. The only reason I think it would benefit from being in this space is when you’re in that dark state and need support the idea of raining on someone else’s parade or adding something negative to an otherwise positive board pressures the person into re-thinking and there’s a weight there that’s hard to shake. I think a space where someone is expecting darkness feels more inviting to the person bringing theirs in.
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