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Tim_McTuffty

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An itinerant squirrel poet, aka https://mastodonapp.uk/@MaJ1

New to the whole word smithing thing so don’t be too harsh.

Write as the muse hits me in the face, so output will probably be irregular, but I want to explore a world of art n poetry that has previously eluded me so will be boosting along those lines.

Boosting is the algorithm here, so if you like my stuff please get it out there 🙏

‪https://justmytoots.com/@Tim_Mctuffty

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 186 , Thursday 02/05/2024

So I’ve been feeling ruff as a bears bum for a few days now (again , you would think more regular exercise would take me the other way 🙄) so I planned to try and sleep thru to 8ish. I put in my ear plugs & set the alarm accordingly.

I was awake at 05:50 … a mix of my traitorous body responding to its Pavlovian training & the noise of herself romping round the house like baby elephant , in that considerate way she has.

So here I sit, my brain is moving at glacial speeds & my body feels like a train hit it.
At least she’s in the office today, so a day of peace & quiet!

I hate how little I am able to do at the moment , either thru illness or depression stealing my motivation.
Sometimes I wish I had a child , or a dog - they seem to be highly motivational from what I can see from the lives of others who have them.
I would be a terrible father or dog owner though , so probably best all round that I avoid both .

Oh while I’m on a roll I WISH my tinnitus would give me a break! It’s been screaming so loud in my ears for days now!

Where to go next on my ASD journey has been on my mind for a few days, the GPs completely negative reaction last time I went to see him has ripped me asunder. Where I had a set path now I flounder in indecision. I guess I have to decide if I need to be able to function better in society , or whether I just stick 2 fingers up at society & return to being a hermit.

Had a really epic FO4 session today after I finished my chores & then when Mrs S. got home we went & did our civic duty & voted - me being plagued by dizzy spells, nausea & exhaustion on the walk there and back & her being plagued by her dodgy knee ! We made a right pair, I think the thing that holds our marriage together at the moment is the need for mutual physical support , together we make a whole working person !

Caved & watched the first episode of Fallout - I’ve missed a couple of the games so I don’t know just how true it is to the earlier games, but I (& surprisingly Mrs S.) enjoyed it , so yeah, roll on ep 2 !

Final Thoughts.

Others write of monumental achievements , of beating challenges , or of coping with pain or personal circumstances that would reduce a normal person to jelly. I wish I were that strong.

I defo have EDFitis again , & it seems as though it’s gonna take its own sweet time to pass. Bummer !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Evening HP

Thank you 🙏

The GP essentially refused to do anything & aimed me at the National Autistic Society , who are a charity & therefore cannot refer me for further tests or treatment 🙄🤦‍♂️

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@kcarruthers Thank you 🙏

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏

It is very dispiriting to get such a reaction from the GP, it just shows how far MH care has to go yet in the UK.

Hey ho.

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@kcarruthers I found the same when I got my diagnosis, but the Consultant made some recommendations & my autistic completionist side wants to see that process thru.

Amounts other things the Consultant thought I may be ADHD too .

But the initial diagnosis has helped a lot !

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@pathfinder Morning Kevin 👋😊

You , @everyday_human , @PixysJourney & others have helped me so much!

It maybe as you say the best way forward , given the givens. I could fight the NHS to get further help but that will lead to stress & will be at least partially counter productive !

I love the @actuallyautistic community I have found on here & hope to be a part of it for a long time to come !

😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@actuallyautistic Hey @GreenRoc 👋😊

My mind gives up eventually & I do get some sleep .

I’m sorry you’re in so much constant pain, but I’m glad the meds help.

Hope you manage to have a decent Friday 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Because the Consultant suggested approaching the NAS as an additional resource the GP leapt on that as the way forward … 2 reasons why
A) it saves him doing anything
B) it saves his budget .
C) he’s a dick with very little idea about MH !

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@Tooden @pathfinder @everyday_human @PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Morning Huggs (extra g to stop the auto replace kicking in 😆 ) 🤗🥰

Thank you 🙏 , I often think I’m writing nonsense so I’m glad some of my mental dribbling helps 😊

Have a good day 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@kcarruthers I’m not sure I am , but I do have a racing mind at times & struggle to sleep because my brain won’t turn off until it’s good & knackered !

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@kcarruthers Hmmmm- me thinks I need to check this quiz out (& pretend to know who that dude is 🙄🤦‍♂️ 😆 )

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@alstonvicar @PixysJourney @actuallyautistic There is another GP at the same practice who is very good, he’s just never there very much 🙄🤦‍♂️

I’m toying with moving to another GP a little further down the valley, but all that is in obeyance until I recover from a stress related condition.

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@alstonvicar @PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏

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Ok Peeps, I’ve been trying to get the day started for the las 2 hours - I guess I should make an effort & get my bum into gear ! Laters 😊🫶🐿️🖖

⌨️📴 Try not to break the interweb while I’m away 😁😜😁

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 186 , Wednesday 01/05/2024

It’s been a really quiet day, not been feeling too good , but what’s new.

We’re supposed to be going to see my family for a birthday on Saturday, I hope I’m well enough!

Final Thoughts.

Nope , one of those days where even someone as nutty as me has nothing deep to write.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 185 , Tuesday 30/04/2024

Woke to the nicest day so far this year, went for a walk, it was nice to feel the sun on my face !

I’m having an ongoing issue with lack of energy, did a few chores & I was exhausted !

So had a couple of hours on here in between involuntary naps & got a an hour or so of FO4 squeezed in - got a sweet set of early game ‘toys’ so ploughing thru most of the bad guys !

Last of the rotisserie chicken we got from Costco for tea, then the usual couple of hours TV with herself before she buggered off to read upstairs .

Final Thoughts.

I hope I can get back to some semblance of normal before the summer ends, it would be nice to have som fun in the sun.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic 🤗🥰

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Ok off an an adventure of a life time … well a walk at any rate 😆

Catch yers all in a bit Peeps 😊🫶🐿️🖖

⌨️📴 Try not to break the interweb while I’m away 😁😜😁

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@NormanDunbar You understand that puts you at the top of the usual suspects list don’t you 😆

Lucky for you there’s a new suspect in the shape of @Thebratdragon on @MaJ1 ‘s TL !

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 184 , Monday 29/04/2024

Monday already!

Up at just before 6 , dizziness made itself known because why not !

Walkies nonetheless , even though walkies at the moment is merely an unpleasant means to an end.

FO4 was the order of the day , Mrs S. offered to go clothes shopping with me this afternoon but I was just not up for mixing with my fellow humans today.

Final Thoughts.

Once again the plans I made for getting stuff done in a day have fallen by the wayside , I guess I got out for a walk & got my basic shores done so it wasn’t a total write off.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@HeatherMJ @actuallyautistic 🤗🥰

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic 🤗🥰

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@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic 🤗🥰

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 183 , Sunday 28/04/2024

Slept in this morning , felt somewhat better for the extra couple of hours.

We went to Costco, with a plan to then go on to M&S for some clothes. Sadly the lighting in Costco plays havoc with me , dizziness & nausea shortened our time in there & meant that we came straight home.

A couple of further dizzy spells this afternoon one fairly minor, but the other causing me some distress indicate that my subconscious stress levels are still high.

We had chicken, chips & gravy for tea, vaguely naughty but very nice.

Final Thoughts.

I thought I was over the dizzy spells earlier this year, but once more EDF messed with my head & we are back almost to square one. Thankfully we have just received the final bill from EDF so I will be rid of them for good by the end of next month.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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