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ashleyspencer, to random
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I deleted all social media apps from my phone except for Mastodon and Reddit.

Facebook is nothing but ads telling me to lose weight. Instagram went from telling me to become an influencer to literally showing my posts to no one. X boxed me into a brand and won’t let me get out of it.

The last few days I tried to be a real person + talk about business things I’m excited about, and I just watched all the algorithms suppress it.

So just going to see how well my business can do without it.

ashleyspencer,
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@ActuallyAutistic It was like Christmas time the last week of the month because of social media. Haven’t had a month that high since October last year. Whether I’m on it or not, I’d still take a hit because I can’t keep up with the brand.

ashleyspencer,
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@pathfinder The pressure started to feel like I’m supposed to be an entertainer instead of an entrepreneur. Big accounts on X have said that once they reached 5k followers people stopped seeing them as a real person. I’m only at 3,700 followers and I already feel like that.

If I’m not talking about how I’m suffering from autism and ADHD, people don’t want to read it. When I’m doing better, I get unfollowed and suppressed.

ashleyspencer,
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@pathfinder it’s not healthy at all. The pressure to maintain it is just too much, and now I can’t get out of that suffering box. Algorithms are tanking my views and reach when I’m trying to just be a normal healthier minded person.

All the posts with 40k views were long posts about me suffering from autistic burnout and ADHD. At some point burnout ends and ADHD gets treated.

ashleyspencer,
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@Tooden @pathfinder That’s what it seems to be. When I had 2,000 followers I got to post about my business and boring things and people enjoyed it. But then I had a couple of posts get up to like 44k views and my followers grew to 3,780. So all these new people expect to see me talk about the suffering they relate to. When they see me posting about my business and boring things they unfollow.

ashleyspencer,
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@Tooden @pathfinder oh wait I was at 3,900 something after those posts but dropped to 3,780 after my posts after that weren’t about suffering.

ashleyspencer,
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@ActuallyAutistic Profits were nice last month, but my expenses were $1,200 higher, so it needed a good month. But now my business is running on next to nothing with cost. I can afford to take the hit from being off social media now. Good thing about being down to only one store.

ashleyspencer, to random
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I gave myself the day off today and didn't do any work except for processing daily orders at 3pm.

Emotions and energy were all over the place since I messed with my meds.

I had fun chewing hard on my chew necklace for 4.5 hours almost nonstop. I feel more confident that it can last with a hard chewer.

But despite the emotional and energy ups and downs, I'm finishing off the day with my favorite chicken for dinner, so that's a daily win. :)

ashleyspencer,
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@Kencf618033 only way to know is to try. Tomorrow I eat pop tarts instead of nutty buddy bars lol. Meds are stronger with pop tarts for some reason haha

ashleyspencer, to random
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I’m so hyper I’m trying not to rapid fire post on my business social media lol. There’s been some posting and deleting so the networks don’t think I’m spam haha.

It’s weird having energy. So rare lately.

ashleyspencer,
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I don’t even want to use this energy to work. I want to do fun things! I never have the energy to do fun things.

ashleyspencer,
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@Cassandra I want to play games on my Steam Deck and PC. I really like the games Wylde Flower and Cat Cafe Manager, but I never have the brain power to play them.

I’m thinking I’m going to get the audiobook version of this ADHD cleaning book I’ve been trying to read but can never focus enough to read. I can play FarmVille while listening to it.

ashleyspencer, to random
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Every day this little girl goes to the courtyard and screams. She’s the reason I took something to make me fall asleep while she was screaming outside last night.

She’s playing with other kids that are yelling nonstop until 9pm.

Too much for my autistic ears 🙉

ashleyspencer,
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@pathfinder “Shut the f*** up you little screaming brats!” That’s what I’m thinking listening to it lol

JeremyMallin, to random
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How much of my life do I spend looking for the television remote? 🤪

ashleyspencer,
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@JeremyMallin I'm the same way, but with my phone. I'm always putting stuff in random places and forgetting where I left it.

ashleyspencer, to random
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Does anyone like keeping odd sleep hours?

I fall asleep between 6pm and 7:30pm every night and wake up between 2:30am to 4:30am.

Great thing about social media is that whatever time you are awake, there are always autistic and ND people around the world awake and online.

ashleyspencer,
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@pathfinder @Adventurer You’re on US time, and I’m on UK time even though I’m in the US 😄

ashleyspencer, to random
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How is this?

Says “autistic & neurodivergent” now

ashleyspencer,
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@Cassandra I hope so too, and thank you. :RedHearts:

ashleyspencer, to random
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I started cycling my aquarium tank yesterday. Threw some betta fish food in the tank and added some "Quick Start" liquid.

The test strips say my tank is safe to add fish, but I need to use the big Freshwater Master Kit to check.

Every morning I say good morning to my cats as I turn on all the lights, and soon I'll be saying good morning to a betta fish too! 😁

ashleyspencer,
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@ratcatcher Bettas are feisty loners like me lol. They don’t like living with other fish. Seemed like an appropriate fish for me. Haha

ashleyspencer,
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My fish tank isn't ready. The test strips were wrong. It's very unsafe water and a fish would not last long. 😭

Ordered some treatment stuff to get the water perfect. More waiting time.

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