I had some really weird and disturbing dreams and am somehow awake before even 5:30. This is a very weird feeling. Not sure if I should get up and do something…
e: couldn’t stay in bed any longer and am sat in my living room at 7 feeling most peculiar, waiting for some hash browns to cook while having a cup of decaf mocha. Maybe I’ll head into work early and vamoose early as well. It’s frahday.
I would keep wondering whether I’d stumbled on some scam/phishing site given how assaulted I felt by the disgusting presentation. One of my work laptops is locked down tight so nothing I can do there, but I’m going to be looking for addons to deshittify goog when I have time. Absolute trash
Really great week so far at work. Falling quite behind on personal/life admin because I usually have no brain for it when I get home and I’m just fully switched on at work. This weekend I better not fall sick or have some other shit suddenly happen… I do need to smash through a lot of stuff.
I am glad that I feel engaged enough at work that I neither feel like I’m drowning, nor bored enough to be on my phone - it’s been really great having hours away from my phone and actually concentrating on something else (and getting paid for it), even though it’s behind a screen.
Whoops posted in the wrong thread. That’s a good sign that I’m staying off the phone.
I’ve been thinking of trying this cool vegan shepherd’s pie recipe but I think I’ll keep it for a colder month. For now I’m contemplating a basic roast veg for dinner, or… maybe some adaptation of borscht? I have 1 fennel bulb, 2 beetroots, potat, and a quarter head of red cabbage. Plus a tin of beans.
E: went with borscht adaptation. There’s no fennel in there but plenty of leek, a bit of celery, two beets and two potat plus some leek greens. Not authentic but tastes pretty alright once cooled down.
I may have added a fair chunk of butter 😬 and I snuck in some ajwain seeds as a thymey alternative to carroway + helps with digesting the cabbage. Adding a chunk of miso paste was probably a step too far, but whatevs. Umami 😎
I’ve never been to Niddrie and its a running joke that most people haven’t heard of it (although the ultimate mystery suburb is Travancore). I really ought to check it out one of these days!
Woop, this time it seems to be my turn to have eaten something that overstayed its welcome. Not sure if it was the rice or the dal. Probably the dal, it’s lasted a week. Burping like crazy and feeling a few stabs in the gut. Usually my gut is fairly durable with old food, but it’s been a little weird lately… handling coffee well again? But back to the burping? Hmmm…
E: I started using my new undated planner which has a “brain dump” section before every 7 days, to unload everything into a list and then assign a priority, and a date to do it by. Then I can pre-fill days in advance and each day has a “3 most important tasks” section to filter out the crucial items. I hope this will help with my life organisation, I think it works with my brain.
This was me last couple of years. I don’t feel it atm as I’m new to my jobs and I certainly think getting out of my house for work helps make it less monotonous, but I can see it happening again on the horizon.
Its an useful feeling, it prompts change and makes us into more interesting people with more to offer the world. What’s really helped in the past has been having a meaningful goal to work towards (savings being an obvious one), and in better times, scheduling in something unusual or out of the ordinary when I can (an overnight trip somewhere new, trying out a new activity, even looking at and applying for new jobs). I may not necessarily enjoy the latter, but it does provide enough contrast/discomfort to help me regain appreciation for my life or remember why I originally chose to play certain things safe.
Got home late today and just cannot be buggered moving all my plants around in the cold and dark. I know my landlord lives ages away so I’ll just do it tomorrow. I’ll definitely be leaving work at 4pm tomoz. Gotta head in early, so I’m leaving on time…
This week’s off to a much better start, less overwhelming, more under control. Much more even-keeled having regular hot non caffienated drinks through the day. Meantime I’m so immensely grateful I made all that food last week. Ripper lunch today and tomorrow, and more goodness for dinner. Gonna do a bittergourd and tvp stir fry tomorrow night I reckon.
Think I’ll have a go at trying to sleep without the phone tonight. I have a library book on ADHD I’ve been wanting to go through…
Ah man. I remember how giddy and excited you were when first meeting the guy. But it sounds like it’s all for the best now (what a dropkick breaking up with you via text). And you’re very much ready to move on yourself.
You’re better off without the guy, and I think this experience will be a great one to take note of what worked + what didn’t. Pay attention to what you felt you needed from him (that kept you in the relationship) and try to find other sources for that, or interrogate the quality of what you were getting, so as to avoid going back to him in a moment of loneliness and/or inebriation ;)
The gut is so complex like that. So much that is beyond just what we eat in the here and now… our state of mind, long term diet, past infections can do so much to our gut flora. I’m surprised that I’ve been able to have coffee again without the loose motions after years of struggling with it - but for how long I’m not sure! And I have no idea what changed
The number of units overall will increase, but iirc the number of genuine public housing units will go down. More will be offered as “social housing” (in cahoots with a social housing provider - privatised profits for poor service outcomes based on the reports going around), or as “affordable housing” (pegged to market rates. I believe the property management will be contracted out to a private third party as well).
I use this tactic too. Doesn’t matter how shit I feel, if I have something else running in the background (washing machine, dishwasher, even the rice cooking) my brain will be more likely to get stuff done in between. Music also helps.
I think the inertia for me comes from this sinking feeling that the work is unending. having an inbuilt timer in the form of the background machine activity, and the music, helps me trick my brain.
It’s taken me a while to get here, but I’m sat in front of the computer now about to research shit I need to get done for this trip. Sun streaming in the windows, Nujabes’ Modal Soul playing, looking forward to work this coming week. Trying my best to channel the good feels, which I can’t seem to hold onto very well…
More roast fennel adventures! Today I made a “creamy” base of broad beans with finely chopped celery, leek, and a couple of chillies sweated for 10 minutes. Then threw in some roast garlic that was in the oven with the fennel, finely chopped fresh rosemary and some dried oregano and thyme, plus stock powder. Then blended it all together (thinned out with copious amounts of pasta water), and threw in the roast fennel, a tin of tuna, a handful of nutritional yeast, and finally some cooked risoni/orzo pasta. Topped it off with some fresh chopped parsley.
An interesting mix of textures and maybe orzo wasn’t the right choice (will it all congeal into a slab tomorrow?), but certainly tastes alright. If I had some capers or olives for a bit of extra briney bite, this would be 👌🏽
e: I also bumped into some friends in the shops, got invited around for a spot of tea, that was extremely wholesome and lovely :)
Booooo. My landlord wants me to take off all my plants from the balcony because apparently a crack (that was already there long before I moved in) has gotten worse. Fair enough because they want to get it fixed. But it’s a lot of plants to lug down two sets of stairs, and then across and up another two to put in the common area…
I don’t know how long they will take to get the balcony fixed - in the meantime, watering and maintaining these plants is going to be a pain and a half. I absolutely can’t be carting water from my unit to the common area so I’ll have to use the communal tap 🤷♀️
What I’m worried about the most is if they say I can’t put any plants back on at all. I’ll be absolutely fuming if that’s the case. Let’s hope they’ll be reasonable. I know they’ve appreciated seeing the veggies and flowers on it and I know several of my neighbours have appreciated them too.
Trying not to spiral into negative thinking and assume they’ll up the rent after this fix as well >_< mustn’t jump to conclusions…
I have a pressing life admin thing to do (start booking accom and itinerary for a long trip with friends booked ages ago that I have a separate kitty of money for, it’s happening in like two weeks). I still haven’t started and it’s giving me a bit of anxiety - meant to do it last week but fell sick. But I’m really enjoying just relaxing and recharging today. Letting my body rest and my mind wander, transitioning back into who I am and what I like. Did some small chores but otherwise no big responsibilities. I think tomorrow I’ll be in a much better headspace to look up what I want to do - operating out of genuine passion and interest not just tired obligation. 😄
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