The days are getting better. Things I am grateful for :)
Today I got a chocolate covered croissant with a friend. She gave me a gorgeous terrarium with a pink philodendron for my birthday and other pink leafy plants. Without even knowing that I love those plants, she thought it would be perfect for me.
Called a friend from work for an hour.
Cried in a soundproof pod at uni and am so grateful that I got to sit in one of those.
Journalled a bit and realised how grateful I am that I don’t have to be anxious anymore waiting for someone to show me that they love me. I also don’t have to go around catering to an extremely judgemental and picky person’s tastes, like music, movies, places to eat. He was very snobby about these things. I feel so free.
I added items to my achievable bucket list. Visit the DMZ between the Koreas and try pole. Two very different things. For some reason, I went down an internet rabbit hole on North Korea a couple of years ago. Would recommend listening to The Lazarus Heist podcast if you’re interested in the DPRK.
I deleted Instagram because I know I would unfortunately stalk my ex and his company. I am no longer doom-scrolling through sad breakup reels and other things that are a waste of time. I have experienced the JOY of missing out. Thought it would be super difficult to give up social media like that but it is helping me live in the present moment. It’s so freeing to consume YouTube and movies as opposed to solely short-form mind-numbing content. Gives you more to talk about too. I am keeping in contact with maybe five friends over text and the others? It helps you realise who really has your back. Quality over quantity. My friends have been screenshotting pictures of cute animals to send to me, and although I’m sad I can’t return the favour like that, it makes me happy.
Doing my assignments is still really difficult. I will try to apply for extensions.
Tomorrow I am visiting the GP and then the day after, I am touring a gym that’s nearby.
I am looking forward to getting myself back. I might cry tomorrow. I might agonise over the future or the past. But whilst it hurts, this change is one of the best things that I think has happened to me. I am so relieved for some reason.
There’s gonna be a new community on aussie.zone about health and fitness so make sure you join. Be kind to yourself and do nice things for you. I think you’ve got everything covered.
le vent/le thoughtsUgh, I need to socialise with friends more. There’s a meetup at a pub on Friday that my partners mates are going to and have invited us (and others). Partners ex-coworkers from an old job, have hung out with them heaps over the years. I just want to hide away forever, like the longer I go without seeing mates the less I actually want to. Which is bad for my mental health, bc I usually justify it with self-destructive thoughts (like “you’re not that funny or smart”, “you’re jobless so what’s there to talk about?”, “they just pretend to like you because they like [partner]”, etc). Which is not healthy. Wish I was socialised more as a kid, honestly, some of this I can tell is because I didn’t have friends when I was a youngun Of course this is all dependent on whether we’re negative come Friday arvo, but I already feel dread and am wrestling with myself about this.
True true! I have done that before and had a lovely time each time.
I think it’s just, like, the depression. The simple chores, the simple self-care, the simple socialisation, is difficult to start but easy once I’m actually doing it.
I’m like an old lawn mower that required a good amount of arm strength and willpower to keep pulling the cord and pushing the machine at the same time to start, but once started, I’m revved up
This is highly dependent on transport/partner also being willing to leave (and I know how hard it can be for adults to get together). But is it possible to go for just an hour or two and then leave?
I’ve been poking through old emails for a while and found my old library card number. Out of curiosity I logged in (apparently they don’t shutdown your account after 2 years like the others I’ve been with). Apparently I forgot to return an item and my accounts been barred with a $50 fee. Honestly not as bad as I was expecting, although I don’t remember them ever emailing me about it.
Apparently they’ve also rebranded which is nice. I remember them as being a drab grey building with “area library corporation” written on it. Apparently they’ve dropped the corporation part of it and redecorated, which is nice
Edit: the book is over 6 years overdue, so at least it’s not a monthly fee 😂
I tend to do this. It’s just natural to me. Much of my communications early were via text on like games or messaging apps. It’s just how my thoughts come out idk
Didn’t really have to punch that pH down with too much vinegar. Looks a bit under 4. Went for a little bit of apple cider, little bit of white wine and some white.
Well today was interesting in the Chinese sense. Took the day off work cos dentist appointment at midday. Then bike got a flat tyre on way to dentist. Took bike to bike hospital to be mended and consigned my soul to public transport. Nearly late for dentist. Then dentist said YOU NEED TWO MORE FILLINGS THAN I PLANNED FOR YOU! So had to wait around in Niddrie central after the appointment was re-scheduled for later on in the day. After all that, had to go pick up bike before getting home.
On the plus side, Niddrie shopping strip is actually pretty nice. Lots of food options (which I couldn’t take advantage of thankyou Mr Dentist) and some interesting clothes. I was particularly taken with a hot pink fitted faux fur vest in the window of one shop - teamed with a sleek black embroidered black on black shiny shirt underneath with leather look leggings and hot pink boots. Very Suzie Q. I sorta kinda wish I was 19 again, as at that age I’d wear that in a heartbeat. Also the last living Rivers store in captivity, and a pretty comprehensive range of specialty shops and wellness practitioners. Very few empty storefronts. They’ve widened the footpaths with one zillion caffs and there were lots of people out and about enjoying the sunshine. I’d actually make the trip there for clothes - not the faux fur though as I’m too long in the tooth now (dammit).
I’ve never been to Niddrie and its a running joke that most people haven’t heard of it (although the ultimate mystery suburb is Travancore). I really ought to check it out one of these days!
If you’re looking for a Vietnam BBQ for $17 including drink - Niddrie is where to go. Couldn’t vouch for quality as mouth was numb but there’s a host of dining options - turkish, bulgarian, japanese, vietnamese, chinese, aussie, mediterranean, greek you name it.
I got stuck there for an hour on a 43° day in 2019 with no water waiting for a tram that never came. I ended up seeking refuge in the library and hiding out there until I could figure out a way home. Fun times.
Whoops posted in the wrong thread. That’s a good sign that I’m staying off the phone.
I’ve been thinking of trying this cool vegan shepherd’s pie recipe but I think I’ll keep it for a colder month. For now I’m contemplating a basic roast veg for dinner, or… maybe some adaptation of borscht? I have 1 fennel bulb, 2 beetroots, potat, and a quarter head of red cabbage. Plus a tin of beans.
E: went with borscht adaptation. There’s no fennel in there but plenty of leek, a bit of celery, two beets and two potat plus some leek greens. Not authentic but tastes pretty alright once cooled down.
I may have added a fair chunk of butter 😬 and I snuck in some ajwain seeds as a thymey alternative to carroway + helps with digesting the cabbage. Adding a chunk of miso paste was probably a step too far, but whatevs. Umami 😎
Johann Hari, johannhari.com , dropped another really timely book this week, this time on Ozempic and other weight control drugs, why we get fat and how to not get fat. The problem is going back to a good diet doesn’t reverse the hormonal effects of a bad diet. Intervention may be required for a while.
And while I cook good meals from basic ingredients I also eat too much and eat some junk, not much junk , but obviously enough to mess me up.
I’ll get back to youse guys when I finish the book. 👍
Always love when I get an incoming call from Mrs B going “Now dont panic, everything is fine! But… someone bit Tinyest” “Oh damn! Is everyone ok?” “Yeah so turns out Tinyest stuck his fingers in someone elses mouth, the other kid bit down and Tinyest was surprised to discover that getting bitten hurts”. “…” least i dont have to save for Uni!
I mean this is the nicest possible way, but… you understand that means you’d have to LIVE in Geelong, right? You cant even go home and take a shower because you’d just be showering IN Geelong.
@TinyBreak@StudChud Many years ago I dated a girl who lived in Rowville, and I can confirm there's plenty to do there.
You can choose whether you want to go to the Coles or the Kmart at Stud Park Shopping Centre. Maybe both?
Or you can wait and wait in a traffic jam on Stud Road.
Or wait and wait in a traffic jam on Wellington Road.
Or wait and wait in a traffic jam on Kelletts Road.
Or wait and wait for the bus to Knox and Ringwood.
Or wait and wait for the bus to Dandenong.
Or wait and wait for the bus to Glen Waverley.
Or wait and wait for the bus to Boronia.
Or wait and wait for the bus to Caulfield.
hit the jackpot, we’ve named every suburb my MIL has chosen to live in ( except corio ) ( against everyone telling her it’s a bad idea )
and she wonders why her neighbourhoods are shit, she has crappy neighbours, there is nothing to do and no where to go and nothing to look at. She complains rich people always live in nice places. ffs, she could have chosen a lot of better places that aren’t necessarily expensive
Wasn’t that bad unless you need a train. Safe area, plenty of shops, not far from Knox or Monash or east link. Fairly quiet. Lived there for many years.
I still don’t fully understand who/what they are. I thought they were a band, but then they were a magazine, but they’re also the term for famous music people, I think?
@StudChud@calhoon2005 Mick Jagger was born born before World War 2 ended. (You can look it up if you like — Jagger was born in 1943. Hiroshima and Nagasaki were nuked in 1945.)
Do you have any sort of source or documentation to support your claim that Rolling Stones are NOT a rock band? Interviews with band members stating that fact? Or claims from other experts within the industry?
Listen to the music. They’re primarily a blues band with a drummer. Some ska & Chuck Berry influences.
Try listening to Paint It Black, Angie, Ruby Tuesday - these are straight run blues with drums.
(Just as an aside, John Lennon was a fan of that one too, apparently. Note the second verse begins "Here come a flattop, he was movin' up with me". Lennon borrowed that line for Come Together and got a lawsuit for his efforts.)
Now. Here's some of the lyrics from You can't always get what you want by the Stones.
"I went down to the Chelsea drugstore
To get your prescription filled
I was standing in line with Mr. Jimmy
And, man, did he look pretty ill
We decided that we would have a soda
My favorite flavor, cherry red
I sung my song to Mr. Jimmy"
Note the African American Vernacular English.
How many British people have you met who go around talking about drugstores?
@ajsadauskas@Thornburywitch@useless_modern_god Fair to say that RocknRoll descended from the Blues, and while the Stones always had Rhythm and Blues as their underpinning, they have been always a Rock n Roll band.
So, 4 interviews in 3 weeks as “Christian name” as opposed to 3 interviews in 4 months as actual name. I wonder how they’ll react when they think they’re going to meet “Christian name” and get “actual name” instead.
My crud has progressed to a point where I can’t hear anything because my ears are blocked.
On the bright side, my flat is clean, my accounts are done and I’ve had a haircut. Now to do my neighbour/friend’s dishes - she’s not been well, and it’s something I can do to help her catch up on all the stuff she’s missed while she’s down
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