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IzabelaKaramia

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trans woman, I write good poems, ADHD, autist, type 1 diabetic, love to study languages, dx exocrine pancreatic insufficiency Dec 2022. Runner not currently running because of years being undernourished. Now walking some and feeling better, convinced I will fulfill a promise I made in a poem The Pale Horse

Definitely a fan of Gruyère cheese.
You can never have enough elephants.
I'll close the door behind us, a tiny tap.
It's where museums tuck away the weird.

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faho, (edited ) to random

What's your favorite gender of song?

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@faho

A vibing bopping banger

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I'm awake and starting my daily thread of nips and bits, jots and thoughts, reelings and feelings

Definitely going to probably fall into a nap some point today, not sure why I'm puttering about now for almost 3 hours

One thing of note earlier in the week and the stress happened is how much it flaked out my resting heart rate. Like late Monday evening even some hours after the worst of things my rhr was up in the 90s. This morning as I write this my rhr is about 67 bpm

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So that rhr of 67 is probably a good sign that my physical health is improving, okay?

But what happened earlier in the week showed how fragile I can be with emotional stress and also probably shows that it's important, damn fucking important, that I do what I need to do to avoid stressful events. Having a resting heart rate climb to near 100 bpm and go on for hours and then take some days to continue to drop down towards unstressed baseline is not good for health, physical and emotional

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Gonna try that sleeping thing again.

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Awake again. Had a dream where I was using the infinitive to bro

Have reopened and copied a spreadsheet I used to use to keep track of glucose results and insulin dosing. I'm probably going to add some more cells to it in the days to come to help me keep track of diabetes management and start getting a better more data minded understanding of how my metabolism has changed with exocrine pancreatic insufficiency now being treated

For this morning right now it's just good enough to log

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the first blood sugar result and that I have dosed 25u Lantus for my daily basal shot

Along with a note that I'm injecting 3u Humalog to handle the liver waking up

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Also want to get in habit of weighing myself daily. This morning the scale said 169 lbs

I probably should also keep some notes about physical activity

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The best thing from yesterday was the sturdy stick I found and brought back to my little veggie plot. It's now a stake next to the green pepper plant. The stem has been tied to the stake.

But when I got back with it, I soon realized that using just my arms and hands weren't enough to drive the stake into the ground to enough depth that it would be sturdy and not possibly fall over in weather in wind.

But there by my foot was a good stone that fit well into the palm of hand. So I picked up

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that stone, held it in the palm of my right hand and then hammered the stake into the ground. Thump thump thump.

I felt connected to our early ancestors and how they would have done similar, grabbed a good somewhat flat rock and used it as a hammer.

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Definitely feeling some effects from walking 2.5 miles yesterday. I think it's not a bad overwhelm, just one where I pushed the limits some and now today I just want to take it very easy and stay well within spoon expenditure.

I need to pick up an rx and can also pick up some supplies while doing that. That'll be the one large task for the day.

Other than that, we'll try to keep everything slow and relaxed. Eat some good food.

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Picked up rx and some other items.

Not feeling bad physically, but I can definitely sense a sleepiness not far away which could get overwhelming if I do too much either physically or mentally. So let's just take it easy today.

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Watered the flowers and veggies, did some pruning of flowers past their prime.

Really lovely weather today. I should make some lunch to eat.

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feels like I may not have used enough zenpep with a meal or two yesterday. My intestines have been complaining and crampy all day.

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Unsure about what to do for a dinner later.

Music has been a Credence Clearwater Revival kind of day.

Starting to feel nervous about something.

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Did take a slow stroll around the apartment complex to see if any useful furniture had been put out by the dumpsters but no such luck today unlike last weekend.

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I'm pretty much convinced that capybaras are potatoes that grew legs,

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If you’d asked me just twelve hours ago whether I hoped to be able to post a picture for , I would have said “no”.

I would have said I’d given up all hope of coming home after 26 days away 😿

And I would have been wrong 😱

As it is, I’m just amazed & grateful that he returned shortly after midnight last night. Very skinny, but otherwise seemingly well & very loud 😺🥰

Thank you to everyone who kept hoping 🙇‍♂️🙂👍

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26 days oh my goodness! Glad he made it home.

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@RenoirDana @bangskij @dipolecat @I_Like_Books @actuallyautistic

oh my goodness yes. I've been thinking about that idea quite a bit especially over the past year as my fatigue has been so bad. Finally all the pieces of evidence came together and I realized that when I described tired to NTs, they didn't relate to it like my tiredness and my experiences and how I reach a tiredness where I can no longer do anything. They think that tiredness still allows effort...

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Awake.

Some anxiety this morning and stomach is complaining.

Did a language lesson on Duolingo and today my learning streak has reached 2000 days. So yay for that, though I haven't been doing nearly as much study as I would like or should. Many days of just doing one lesson.

Sometimes it just feels like all the overwhelm of 2021 blew out all my fuses and any sort of sense of stress or potential overwhelm terrifies me. It leaves me feeling like I'm slowly smoldering into nothing.

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Now hearing the noises of shuffling grues

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Finally got an easy work task with high reward and it means I can relax and not feel pressured to hurry for rest of day

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Added in some more stuff and now I'm in very good shape to relax while I have lunch break and then after that work at a slower more deliberate pace

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There's a tornado warning?

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looks like the line is almost past where I live so I guess I'm okay enough where I am

But there must have been something close to me or threatening to develop into a tornado, hope that nothing bad has happened anywhere

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But so much for relaxing during lunch break. Not hearing any sirens or anything so I hope that's a good sign.

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Is pineapple on pizza still controversial?

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