@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic that I will never understand most people in this world, especially when I see them doing lots of things based on emotional outbursts instead of rationality, logic and knowledge.
And thus it's losing time and energy to try to understand and/or explain why it's very confusing to me. Better to admit I live in an absurd world surrounded mostly by ppl so weird and absurd to me.
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic The fact that many of my family members have Autistic blood in their veins.
Thus seeking a cure would be a transgression against my ancestors on par with cutting my hair, which itself is on par with cutting off my limbs! /ex
I always wanted to do something significant & make a difference. And I the fact is, I’ve done that. I’ve managed to come through some very difficult experiences in spite of ( & to some extent, because of) my ADHD & being autistic. And in light of that, my achievements have been significant, & I know I’ve made a difference to some of the people I’ve engaged with along the way, mostly positive.
It’s not anything you’d write a book about (but …), unlike a celebrated scientist/artist/athlete etc, but I’m pretty chuffed.
How I learnt myself much better is being around people who generally cares. I felt tied down being with people who barely gives much thought about me or verbally abuse me and their friend make excuses for them. Also, cutting people off had led me to feel much better about myself rather than had to mentally prepare myself of feeling unwanted.
Listening music as well as singing have been my coping mechanism. I tend to listen to it on the bus and in my bedroom. I went to the karaoke night one time and made copule friend there which any soical event I would have not as their usually too loud and difficult to try to know how to part of a conversation. With karaoke, you just pick a song that be fun to sing to and just have fun.
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic that my sincere attempts to "get it right" will almost inevitably "get it wrong", but the fault doesn't lie with me after all.
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That I am not on the edge with various ideas, perceptions, skills etc. I am simply on a different coordinate system.
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