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RolloTreadway

@RolloTreadway@beige.party

Autistic Welsh NHS emergency care quality improvement person.
(they/them or he/him - those are familiar enough and will do.)

Most important:
Trans rights are human rights; Black lives matter; Tories always despise you even if they pretend not to.

Enthusiastic about woodland, cricket, silent film, constitutional stuff, birds, gardens, tea, sandwiches, music.

(Profile pic: Buster Keaton sits unhappily in a steamship funnel; header is a glass teapot full of leaves.)

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RolloTreadway, to Eurovision
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Actually, one more thing.

I've been scrolling through the hashtag, and there is so so much love and joy from non-binary, trans and other people about Nemo's success (and also the general wonderfulness of Bambie Thug).

And it's beautiful. Honestly, just so beautiful.

Love to all of you, you fantastic bunch of humans.

:blobcatenby: :blobcat_heart_trans:

RolloTreadway, to Eurovision
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Got to love the gay boxers.

RolloTreadway, to Eurovision
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Going first is traditionally very bad news, as nobody remembers your song when the voting opens.

But now they've decided to open the voting immediately, so the first song has a better chance to win!

And who is the first song?

SWEDEN.

RickiTarr, to random
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So, what's the thing, what's the big thing no one can help you with? How do you cope with it?

RolloTreadway,
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@RickiTarr The damage caused by losing all of my 20s to abuse. It continues to harm me in multiple ways every day, and I grieve for the loss of the life and the person that never got to be.

How do I cope with it? I don't. There isn't any way to cope, as far as I'm aware. And certainly, there isn't a way whilst I'm so isolated. And I can't not be isolated because of the damage caused etc etc...

So I get through each day, hour, minute, until eventually I won't.

RolloTreadway, to random
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You remember that I had a sheet, which I struggled to get dry because of the weather, and then when I finally managed to get it dry on the line a bird shat on it?

Washed it again today.

A bird shat on it.

Again.

purplepadma, to random
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siesta. Miss Cinnamon says it’s too warm outside for creatures with black fur coats

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma She's not wrong. It's also too hot for big fat humans like me.

purplepadma, to random
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There were no cheese scones in M&S. it’s like Rhubarbgate all over again. I’ve got to do some more potting up of plants this afternoon, that’s something I used to really enjoy but right now the thought makes me quite literally lose the will to live. I’ll do what I can

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma At least it's easier and quicker to produce your own cheese scones than your own rhubarb. Does Tom bake, if you're not up to it?

RolloTreadway, to random
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I think I'm the only person who didn't know anything about the aurora last night. Anyway, I was far too tired and asleep not long after sunset. Sometimes, though, I wonder how everyone knows about these things except me.

purplepadma, to random
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Oh FFS my mood has crashed again. Can’t take this rollercoaster of emotions, ultra rapid cycling or mixed mood or whatever else it is. I just need some stability 😢

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma I hope you can sleep. Sounds like you need it.

RickiTarr, to random
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Where do you live and how do you feel about it?

Obviously, don't tell me exactly where you live, no actual addresses please! You can be as vague as you like.

I live in Central Missouri in the U.S.

Pros:

This is an absolutely beautiful place, green rolling hills, lots of rivers, lakes, ponds, and natural springs, cool caves to explore.

Lots of farming here, so great access to quality fruits, vegetables, meat, eggs, and dairy.

It's relatively inexpensive to live here compared with other states, because it's a "flyover".

I'm close enough to three major cities, that it's an easy day trip, and I'm about halfway to anywhere in the U.S.

We have one of the best Conservation departments in the U.S. and this is one of the few things that is a bipartisan issue. Lots of awesome nature programs that are free or cheap, state parks, conservation areas, bird watching, hunting, boating, foraging available to everyone.

Cons:

Yeah, it's a big one, it is a RED STATE, while a lot of the cities are blue, there is a large rural population, that votes red. Abortion is not legal here. People often vote against their own self interest.

While I'm not against responsible gun ownership, lots of people aren't responsible, and people have access to guns that definitely should not.

We have very few employee protections here, while the cost of living is relatively low compared with other places, it's taken years to get to a $12 minimum wage, and it's still not enough.

RolloTreadway,
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@RickiTarr I live in the Liberty of Tynedale. Okay, that name's a bit silly - the title of Liberty hasn't existed for centuries, it was a medieval system of devolved local government, mostly used for convenience in areas that were problematically far from the King - but I also enjoy the sound of it.

Plus, fun fact: the Liberty of Tynedale was for 150ish years a de facto exclave of Scotland, because the right to govern it on behalf of the King was inherited by a Scottish family, and the English king was too busy to deal with that. I'm going to use that as a claim for Tynedale to join Scotland when the latter becomes independent.

Pros: well, that. Everything here is dripping with history. Castles everywhere, a big chuffing wall just over there, Roman bases for manning that wall, the world's oldest railway lines (my local station is one of the oldest surviving stations that's still in use anywhere), relics of a mighty industrial history, and so on. And the hard edged but caring culture that you get in a land of miners, shipbuilders and hardscrabble farmers, that's very much my culture, it's just the same as where I grew up in North Wales, and I appreciate it a great deal.

Plus, it's beautiful. I don't care what anyone else thinks, I've maintained for many years that Northumberland in all its wildness and roughness is the finest county in England. Our coastline especially is magnificent.

And in my immediate vicinity, housing is comparatively cheap. Prices elsewhere are crazy, but I can rent a nice little house with a garden on a well-below-average salary. There are nice independent shops on the high street. There are lots of woods nearby. And my cheap house comes with a view! A picture of which I've just taken and attached.

Cons: the main con is that it's in Britain, and England more specifically. A country run down in the present case by a truly disastrous government, and over a longer time by being controlled by an obsolete, unmoving and self-serving establishment.

And up here, we do get the sharp end of that. Investment is minimal, public transport is limited (per capita public spending on transport here is 0.5% of London's). There aren't a lot of jobs, and even fewer good jobs. The population is older, poorer and less healthy than the average. Healthy life expectancy is dreadfully low.

Plus inequality is very clear in Northumberland. It has poor, post-industrial places, like where I live. It has wealthy market towns. It has some of the lowest income farmland in England, and it has some enormous country estates and mansions. And again, local government investment goes where it's least needed - the most well-to-do towns get twenty times as much capital investment as my working class town.

But overall, you know, it would be a lot less shit if only we could get rid of the British establishment and governing classes. So much of what is negative is completely unnecessary, solely a product of bad decisions by the uncaring rich. This area has so much going for it but we've been let down for centuries.

RolloTreadway, to random
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Ugh. I really need to go out and sow some seeds - I looked at my list of what to sow when and I'm way behind - but removing myself from the sofa feels terribly difficult. And my brain wants a nap instead.

girlonthenet, to random
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So many affiliate dashboards are a complete piece of shit, but none more so than CCBill: the worst web interface ever designed by humans.

RolloTreadway,
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@girlonthenet Feels so weird any time I get sent a cheque (which isn't terribly often, admittedly). It's like looking at the streetlights outside and seeing a lamp lighter tending to them.

purplepadma, to random
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I keep telling myself that one day in the future I will wake up and not feel depressed, that I will actually want to get out of bed. Today is not that day

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma It will come, though, it will.

purplepadma, to random
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Finally starting to feel calmer and less freaked out. I’m sitting on the patio with Tom and Miss Cinnamon is pottering about nearby. I didn’t achieve any of the things I wanted to do today.

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Sometimes, unexpected events take priority over what you expected to do, and that's completely necessary and reasonable.

RolloTreadway, to random
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Yikes. Just had a truly terrifying experience.

A reminder for my dentist appointment popped up on my phone! I guess I'd accidentally set the reminder for a week in advance rather than my usual day in advance.

I am definitely not ready for the dentist today NO THANK YOU

purplepadma, to random
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Miss Cinnamon is home! Our neighbour saw her sauntering down the close then she jumped over the side gate miaowing. She seems absolutely fine and not hungry. So relieved, thank you for all your good wishes

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Oh heavens! I was so very very worried (although not as worried as you were, obviously!) and this is the best news.

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Completely understand that. Mine would too in that kind of situation. I'm sure Miss C is entirely oblivious to it all!

RolloTreadway, to Bloomscrolling
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Came out to the woods. Many things are close to flowering, but not many actually there yet. However, the bluebells are still going with enthusiasm.

RolloTreadway, to random
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Welcome back @neurothing! After a well-deserved break, we have a topic of .

It's really quite light here, but nevertheless, here's some darkness for you all:

Moses Boyd ft. Obongjayar - Dancing in the Dark
(no, it's not that one)
https://youtu.be/9zdXp33ep28

Somatic Responses - Imagined Darkness
https://youtu.be/19Q44mfNTKA

Bonnie 'Prince' Billy - I See a Darkness
https://youtu.be/ElygSMtokAw

The Young'uns - Dark Water
https://youtu.be/x4-x4g2MkdI

The Flirtations - Change My Darkness Into Light
https://youtu.be/bxkAUoBJPIA

purplepadma, to random
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Morning. Miss Cinnamon didn’t come home last night. Tom slept downstairs to listen out for her, but nothing. I’m very anxious.

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma I'll have my fingers crossed she reappears.

purplepadma, to random
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My mood has rallied now, but I haven’t been so up and down in one day for many weeks. It’s quite exhausting and scary but right this moment I feel peaceful. No need to cook tonight - we’re still quite full from lunch so we’re just going to have some cheese and crackers and fruit

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma That is a very fine tea to have.

RolloTreadway,
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@purplepadma Gorgeous!

RolloTreadway, to random
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I've given the two dense round shrubs at the front a haircut. One's a juniper of some kind, the other... I can't remember. I did ask here once and someone gave me an answer, but I've forgotten it. Anyway, it's a shrub and it needed a haircut.

They're right at the front of the property, and have a tendency to grow over the public footpath, so I have to trim them to make sure people can still get past. Someone last year advised me to trim every April and August... but, like I said earlier, April was shit so it's May now.

By the way, in case anyone worries, no, there aren't nesting birds in there (too low to the ground, I suspect).

I don't know why I'm telling you all this. It's not very interesting.

RolloTreadway,
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@eclectech Honestly, I'd be fired if I was taking this approach as a barber - largely because I've not trimmed them upwards. I'm quite happy for them to get a little taller if they want to. But I doubt many humans would be happy if I insisted on only cutting the hairs that grow out horizontally.

RolloTreadway, to random
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Morning everyone. I think another day of gardening is in store today. There's just so much to do - plus, I'm behind on a bunch of things I would normally have done in April, because it was cold and wet and they didn't get done.

Earworm this morning, because of something I read when scrolling back my mastodon feed, is I Want To Be In The Mafia by BC Camplight.
https://youtu.be/D97HZztWpPY

RolloTreadway,
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@thebaywindowgirl It shone very briefly, but all is grey again now.

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