@Dani Been exactly there. My therapist called it putting on a flesh-coloured band-aid on a septic wound. Been through exactly that; wanted to repress everything because my wife was struggling and, well, men aren’t supposed to feel anything. (And I was supposed to be a Man)
But I still didn’t want to broach GD with the therapist at that point ; was also struggling at work in addition to anger and sadness. Wanted to “solve” those before I got to GD. Guess that’s where I am now. Anger issues “solved”, now onto GD.
I’m rambling here. Just wanted to say, I know what you’re saying. Happy to lend an ear if you’d like to talk about it anytime.