@RickiTarr Being an outcast. I have a hard time connecting with people. I’ve been told I’m “intimidating” but I’m not aggressive at all. I’m more of a wallflower and I listen before I speak. I think people interpret it as arrogance or being so well adjusted I don’t need anything in terms of emotional support. I struggle to understand it and have tried to really look at myself and why it keeps happening. I don’t think I’m on the spectrum or anything. I’m just reserved. So I failed miserably at making “mom friends” when we moved to the burbs. I’ve lost long time friends, including one who I considered a very close friend who just ghosted me about a decade ago. It’s a thing professionally too. I worked at my old place for 15 years, I have “esteem” in my field and it was fuckin crickets when I resigned. People I’d have expected to check in on me were silent and someone I wouldn’t have actually checked in on me. It was wild. So I worry I’ll be a lonely old lady one day. But my kids seem to like me. For now 😊
RickiTarr