TL:DR My time management sucks ! ; I knew the positive streak was too good to last ! ;I’m totally focused . . “oh look , squirrel!’
Busy day today.
Up at the usual time, but mixed chatting with my bestie with a little NMS to try & get the Expedition moved fwd.
I’d like to say that I jumped to the whole ASD stuff after breakfast, but I’m back to being well enough for the game addiction to be present so lost another hour to that 🙄🤦♂️
I spent the morning fighting with the scanner to persuade it to scan the ASD Informant reports in & then collate them into the right order , came close to just chucking the thing out the window !
Spent a couple or 3 hours this afternoon playing NMS co-op , enjoyed it enormously , although did feel guilty that I had failed on concentrating on the ASD stuff left to do!
Late afternoon into this evening was spent summarising up my educational & employment history, boy have I done a lot of stuff ! I could have done without being reminded that 2012 was the last year I was able to work due to a massive MH breakdown.
A call with the elder of my sisters was a nice way to end the day.
Final Thoughts:
I rediscovered why I don’t work anymore, having fought with a mix of the technology , my stubbornness to cough up to renew our MS 365 sub. & reminders going off left right & centre for stuff I had put on a back burner for today , I was thoroughly frustrated with everything by the time my Sister rang this evening, to the point where the cats & Mrs Squirrel had vacated the immediate vicinity and various pieces of tech were in severe danger of being lobbed across the room!
I don’t do defeat, I do however work on the basis of a deadline to force me to do stuff, which then leads to frustration if stuff goes wrong!
To thoroughly misquote Yoda ,“Frustration leads to anger , anger leads to hate , hate leads to the dark side ! “
Tomorrow morning will absolutely have to be dedicated to finishing this flipping ASD Self assessment report !
I can prevaricate for England it seems !
Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty@actuallyautistic
'Oh look squirrel '
Wonderful 👍
That is Mr DoubleTreble, he is so like that, I describe him as a butterfly, he's always totally focused on a job, until something else attracts his attention, he flits from one task to another!
With abandon!
Hope everything goes well for you today and don't let 'stuff get you down '
It's just stuff 🥰🥰🥰🥰
@Tim_McTuffty
Owwwww I asked if you were done with the asd stuff.... I loved gaming but now I feel a tad guilty for dragging you into NMS....
Hopefully you will get it all done today!! 🤗 I have no game time today so I won't distract you and lure you to the dark side. But maybe tomorrow afternoon 😇 Hihi...
Glad you had a nice call with your sister. Sorry to read that the cats and Mrs squirrel needed to vacate the premises in order to be safe. I'm sorry to have added to this frustration due to me asking you to game with me... 😔
Sending silly Pixy hugs 🧚🏼♀️ and Arwen throws in some wet kisses 🐾 hope you're having a good night 😴. @actuallyautistic
@PixysJourney@actuallyautistic Cynni, absolutely not your fault that I chose to play a game rather than knuckle down to work!
Also not your fault that the software played up & I can’t type to save my life !
I had a lovely time yesterday playing NMS with you , & all the stuff got done in good time.
Please don’t take any blame for my faults , I certainly don’t blame you ! 🤗🥰
Abbie was chuffed that I got the Informants reports over & found the education / employment summary useful . So all’s well that end’s well !
You’re a very dear friend & I truly enjoy our time together !
😊🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Awwww 🥰
Thank you, but still, I know how procrastinating can work against us. And as much as I enjoyed gaming with you, I know some things are definitely more important 😇.
Glad that you got it all sorted in the end! Hope the call with Annie went good!!! 😁
And thank you! 😁 I also enjoy gaming and chatting with you. 💜🫂🫶🏻🧚🏼♀️ @actuallyautistic
@GreenRoc@actuallyautistic Thank you , talking to my Sister
Sis: “Well you’ve filled out forms before !”
Me: “Not 25 pages with 60 questions on them I haven’t! ”
Yeah, you won’t see me for the smoke from the Dual Shock on Wednesday ! 😜😂
Oh I loathe that saying. The accumulation of digust with things I put up with before, now I'm like, I did have a problem before, but not like I could do anything about it then, now from accumulated issues, I'm making my problem known.
I am so traumatized by forms, the last one put into my hands ended up across the room as I involuntarily threw the clipboard. She was mad I bent her clipboard. Trauma builds with experience. @actuallyautistic
@GreenRoc@actuallyautistic I have never filled in such a detailed form covering my whole life before - I’m glad I will have had 3 sessions to help me complete it properly !
You’re not wrong vis a vis trauma growing with experience !
@Tim_McTuffty I like when stuff makes sense too! Glad I could help with my sharing of life experiences. I hope we all discover more about ourselves in the future!
Molehills of trauma can make a mountain (to use a saying of my dad, "stop making a mountain out of a molehill")
@GreenRoc@actuallyautistic My dad used to say the same thing, I know I catastrophise, & I try to stay on top of it, but sometimes there is just too much going on in my head for the control information to fight its way thru !
You n @pathfinder & @PlaystationPixy & @DoubleTreble & @Cbfoley amongst so many others help me so much with walking this path - you are all very much appreciated by dis Squirrel !
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