Have you talked about this with your in-real-life persons? Or are you making a brave face while crumbling inside? Maybe it’s time to open up not just online but to someone who is in this with you - and especially the people affected by your struggle.
Deinitely dying inside while tryng to look normal. The problem is, this mainly affects my job, and even though there are people I feel comfortable talking to, it’s still a workplace and I do not like exposing myself in it. I feel like the more you let others know you, the more weapons they have against you (I’m talking about the boss especially).
I really think the “fake it until you make it” approach is the only one viable in a workplace that is not perfectly morally aligned with you. I’m probably just overthinking, but it’s a chance I’m not really willing to take.