Right around when puberty started hitting, I suddenly no longer had any attraction to girls. Before that, I used to have crushes on girls. Then, I started looking at gay porn, telling myself it was gross but I kept coming back to it. Pretty quickly, that was the only porn I was watching, and I started having crushes on boys at school.
There were signs when I was younger. I think I had crushes on boys but didn’t know that’s what it was because I didn’t know it was a thing. I was more feminine, had mostly girls as friends, played with dolls, etc. Other people knew I was gay before I did.