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Impossible_PhD

@Impossible_PhD@hachyderm.io

PhD #trans girl! She/Her, thing explainer and technical writing scholar interested in trans usability studies and design theory. Gender questioning folks are very welcome to message me! ⚢ Married. Opinions mine.

Putting the Homo in Homo Sapiens.

Don't crack eggs. Build nests.

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I'll be taking next week off on SGW. Several reasons why, but generally busy. I'll be out of town for part of the weekend and....

I bought a new car on Monday. My very first new car. For those who haven't, buying a new car is a Whole Fucking Process.

So yeah. Taking the breather.

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I had an idle curiosity and went down an internet rabbit-hole. Eventually, after one thing led to an eighth thing, and the short version is that someone cared about my bad Ranma fanfiction enough to figure out my real name and attach it to my fanfics on a wiki registry of Ranma fanfics writers.

Ngl, since all but one of the pieces was written while I was an angsty teen, I thought I'd be more mortified. Oh well, I pulled down all the really bad ones a while ago.

Impossible_PhD, to random
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All right, I've gotta show you something funny.

This is a pretransition pic of me. In a costume I made. For Halloween.

And taught class in.

If trying to make dysphoria a joke was a picture:

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I don't generally watch horror movies anymore. They're boring.

Cheap jumpscares, buckets of red syrup, predictable writing. Horror movies became boring to me a long time ago.

I just saw I Saw The TV Glow.

First horror movie I've ever seen that left me in tears, horrified, driving home after.

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Wow.

I don't know what to say.

50,000 people read Stained Glass Woman last month.

Impossible_PhD, to nonbinary
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What happens after the end of the second year of hormonal transition, once all the doctors say you've seen everything you're going to see. Why is it that basically everyone sees... well, a heck of a lot more?

This week on , we're talking about Transition Timelines, and the science--and lack thereof--of later transition!

https://stainedglasswoman.substack.com/p/transition-timelines

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OK so

I've just cued up Revolutionary Girl Utena for the first time. It's got such a reputation that I've never dared try it before.

I really hope it loves up to the sapphic hype.

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Well. This is interesting.

A new study found that autistic folks (well, mice models) develop PTSD brain structures significantly more eaaily than ballistic ones. That even comparatively minor stressors of the right type can cause this.

Huh.

https://www.cell.com/iscience/fulltext/S2589-0042(24)00969-6

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Okay, I'm doing one of those anonymous AMA thingies! I'm using Google Forms instead of that one app, but it's still 100% anonymous, and I'll be checking and posting replies over the course of the day.

Here's the link to ask or say whatever you want: https://forms.gle/hEwv6eU4CQHWqBeF9

The only stuff I won't respond to are:

  1. Questions about what I've got going on with my pelvis.
  2. Anything that's just being mean.

Everything else is on the table, including stuff I wouldn't usually answer. 😉

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Ummm

Jesus christ I'm gay.

Gambit's energy, but as a girl?! 😳

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Part of me wants to do one of those anonymous ask me anything thingies. I'm curious to know the things people want to ask or say, but are too shy/self conscious to ask.

The other part of me is just a smidge bit worried to do it.

Cuz I wonder what people want to ask or say, but are too ahy/self conscious to ask. 🤭

Impossible_PhD, to random
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I shared this over on Bluesky because someone was wondering what it was like for me to look down.

So...

Pic.

Impossible_PhD, to random
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Have you ever wondered what an anime that was the fever-dream love child of Ghost in the Shell and Blade Runner might look like? Especially if it was made at the height of the cyberpunk swell in the mid-90s? And what if it had Big Trans Themes, both transfem and transmasc?

Armitage III is that anime.

And it's available to stream for free from the internet archive.

https://archive.org/details/armitage-iii/Armitage+III+Episode+1.mp4

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OK so

I saw a trans gal wearing these

And it was fucking hilarious.

Yes, that writing is across the front.

Impossible_PhD, to trans
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Coming out is hard, and coming out as trans is even harder. As trans folks, we have to do it in a way pretty much nobody else ever does.

This week on , we're looking at the rhetoric of How To Come Out Anywhere, so you can feel a little more confident when you invite the people you love into a deeper relationship with you.

https://stainedglasswoman.substack.com/p/how-to-come-out-anywhere

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I just got some really good news.

That presentation I pitched about SGW? For the prestigious panel that's hard to get into at the prestigious conference that's hard to get into?

I got in.

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The end of spring term is a really hard time for me. There's so much to do, and so many different things to do, and the no rest plus constant task switching absolutely obliterates me because of my autism which, since I'm really not out about it, I can't even talk about or get help for.

It leaves me feeling deeply worthless.

And even if/when people tell me otherwise round this time of the year, it doesn't feel believable, because I can barely function for weeks on end.

I just feel broken.

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Every now and again, I sit down to make a transition timeline, because I took a selfie I like in particular and I just go

Holy shit. How did that used to be me?

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I love this dress.

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I just heard that the supplemental art book for one of my favorite obscure '90's anime has entered the public archive! EEEEE!

https://archive.org/details/armitage-the-third-visual-file

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Happy Fine-ass Friday, my queerdos and weirdos!

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A trans friend of mine with expander implants just passed a big milestone for her, and... damn, that's just cool that we can just do these sorts of things. And that I get to know people who are realizing their dreams in this way. 🥰

Also--and remember that this is coming from me--goddamn, Zeni has really big boobs.

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Look, I'm not saying anything.

But I'm not not saying anything either.

Completely coincidentally, Beneath the Surface has surpassed 50,000 unique reads.

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So I'm pitching a talk about Stained Glass Woman for a major conference next year.

In the Queer Caucus' featured panel.

Wish me luck!

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Every now and then you read a sentence in a book and it just calls you the hell out.

Ruuuuuude!

Edit: the picture of the passage got cut off. Weird.

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