That’s what GNU/Linux is for. No closed source software to keep my thoughts safely encrypted the way I trust, not one person but rather the masses checking the guarentee of my safety in documenting. Safer than handwritten even.
Writing slows my thoughts and reorients them as I review and rewrite. Old shit I write is always like WTF to my aged self.
So is that actually what ADHD is like? When I was a kid (middle school or so), I got diagnosed with ADD, and I’m still not certain I know the differences between the two.
I do however, know that I’ve frequently discribed my train of thought as multiple trains, on multiple tracks, all swapping places and directions at seemingly random intervals. I can’t ever follow just one train at at time (if any at all) to its destination.
ADD and ADHD are essentially the same thing apart from the hyperactivity . The H is for hyperactivity, which doesn’t always describe every person with ADD.
And at least in the US ADD is no longer a thing and hasn’t been for a while, having been subsumed into the ADHD diagnosis, which can be inattentive, hyperactive, or combined.
I’m guessing you were diagnosed in the 80s or 90s because ADD is the same thing as ADHD, they just changed the name. Sometimes I’ve heard people use ADD for the primarily inattentive type of ADHD (as in the space cadet rather than hyperactive variety), but I don’t think that distinction has ever been used clinically.
Yeah right? Running doesn’t clear my head, it just is something I can do that my overactive spewing of thoughts won’t interrupt
Although when my brain is trying to get me to kill myself running as hard as I can as long as I can does help. It doesn’t make me feel better but it does make me too tired to manically hate myself so I call it a win. Also it’s hard to sob when you need to breathe that much which is nice
When running I’m both letting my brain think freely and listening to music. It’s quite stress reducing, but it absolutely doesn’t drown out the barrage of thoughts
Ok, 1, 2 ohh this is heavy, 3, 4, 5, is it heavy or am I weak? 6, no, I need to 7 focus on counting, 8, 9 9 9 9 next is 10! Wow two digits. Yah now I can’t count on my fingers anymore, 11, maybe I can use my 12 toes, but then I’ll only 13 be able to count to 20. And then what 21? Maybe I should use my toes for 22 decimals like 10 20… wait did I miss a number? Where was I? 30? … non oh one more pull, what what number is it? Oh hell let’s go back to 15. Yeah 16 that’s a good spot to start again 15. maybe I’ll 16 do more than needed 17. But at least it’s better than skipping to 30. Ah but 31 if I do that it’s faster 32 to the end 33. Maybe I should do time 35 based instead. How long has it been? 5 minutes, 37 it feels like 37 5 minutes but when you exercise 37 time perception 38 changes and I’m bat at keeping time. 39 and what if I go faster 40!!! Round number again! Yay! Almost to 50 42. Why do we always stop T round numbers? 44 why not ending at 48? 45 I’ll stop at 48 today. 46 but then I will feel lazy 47 maybe I should go to 52 instead. 48! I reached 48!!, my old goal! New goal 52! Come on!! What is this so heavy 50! Ah I’m done. I can’t do this. Wait was I supposed to switch to the other hand? 51 but then 50 is odd I need an even number. This thing makes no sense 5…. What 53? Oh I give up.
Omg this is too real. I lose track of counting so easily i often just have to guess where I am at. You literally typed a perfect representation of what’s going through my brain when I’m trying to focus on something so simple as counting. Only just recently discovered that it’s apparently not a normal thing to do
I recently discovered it wasn’t normal when I went to physical therapy after a knee surgery. I kept telling the therapist I lost count, we switched to time based and he would keep me on tempo by checking on me now and then.
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