So I stumbled upon an old facebook post of myself quoting Austin Osman Spare, and the phrase "Shark of their Desire" jumped out at me and made me think of #blahaj, so I couldn't resist making a meme from a photo of myself with my blahaj, and the AOS quote...
Just found my old print copy of The Manual, purchased redacted years ago at Polyester Books in Fitzroy. I would rate this as one of the best, most practical #occult texts ever written.
The 'Will' is often presented as the first step to a magical work. Sometimes it's labeled as 'intent' but the concept is similar. For the 93 crowd it's kinda the main thing ('do what thou wilt'). What would it mean to let go of that concept as an anchor?
Since Oct when the Nobel prize was announced, I've spent a lot of time watching videos on Bell's inequality and alternative explanations for the results the experimenters found (you saw the headlines, 'the universe is not locally real'). I'm not going to go into quantum woo, but I bring it up to give context.
There's another interpretation of the results that doesn't get a lot of airtime - that the universe is real but it's also superdeterministic. Everything that will happen in the future is already crystalized. When the particle is created there's no need for fuzzy entanglement because there's only one way it could later be measured, there's only the one future. Search for videos by Sabine Hossenfelder if you want to learn more.
From this perspective there's only ever one intent you could have - the one you have. It becomes meaningless to talk about 'choosing' an intent or exerting your will.
For a chaos magician, it opens up some very interesting questions. like "Given the state of mind I am in two days from now, what state of mind is a prerequisite tonight?" This has an effect of reversing the sense of agency, so that you're not trying to broadcast your intention, but instead you're approaching the experience of intention as a curiosity. You're along for the ride, even though each moment still feels subjectively like 'making a decision' and 'having free will'.
People mistake "chaos" to mean "random" but that's not the same. Chaos is unpredictable. It could be deterministically unpredictable - completely scripted but endlessly surprising. I recommend trying on this perspective for a few days. Exploring the sensation of decisiveness as simply the requisite brain state that results in certain actions. ('Me acting decisively two days from now required what state of mind at this moment?') If you start from the assumption that the future is already there, the experience of mulling over a decision can be seen as just the amount of time it takes your mind to chew on the problem. Each step of the process was necessary - the final state could never have been reached without each one of them. Any effort you made to direct or rush the process was equally predetermined, and equally needed.
So please do put some thought into how you're setting up that ritual. You wouldn't have the same result otherwise. and since there's no future where you didn't set up the ritual this way, you might as well go ahead.