Forecast says it'll rain today and cloudy with showers tomorrow. Maybe sunshine returns on Thursday. I could use good days of sunshine. Yesterday there was some semi-sunshine getting through thin clouds but not the sunshine I need.
Ginza is such a good sleeping buddy. I love hearing her sometimes making sighing noises in the night because of how comfy she feels.
Many times #ActuallyAutistic people are diagnosed as having alexithymia, an inability to recognize and/or describe the emotions they are feeling. Its Greek roots mean "without words for feelings."
It seems complex to me, an autistic who has an oversized vocabulary in some part due to the fact I was a hyperlexic child who learned to read before kindergarten and the fact I have a great love and curiosity for language, for languages, for words. I have plenty of words. I have feelings.
I also have a strong desire to be careful with my words, to find ones that seem best, though even then later thinking may lead me to wanting to revise them. Of course that's when allistics might suggest I'm simply overthinking things. But is that true? Or is it that they are underthinking things? Why don't they spend more time examining their feelings?
Of course another issue which has made alexithymia part of my life is how much of my life I would be told that I wasn't
feeling the things I would feel, that my descriptions were wrong. If that happens to any person often enough, it will create hesitation and uncertainty.
But here's something I know. All our words are at best approximations and that over time words change and shift in meaning. That is demonstrated over and over in languages and their histories that we know of. Words are symbols but they are only maps and not the actual territory. Those symbols can grow in complexity
when we use metaphorical representations built from vocabulary and grammar. We share those maps with others, but we can't know exactly how others look upon maps or hold those maps or how they might not just look at the map but take it in their hands, put their fingers upon it, use other sensory inputs to make sense of them.