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IzabelaKaramia

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trans woman, I write good poems, ADHD, autist, type 1 diabetic, love to study languages, dx exocrine pancreatic insufficiency Dec 2022. Runner not currently running because of years being undernourished. Now walking some and feeling better, convinced I will fulfill a promise I made in a poem The Pale Horse

Definitely a fan of Gruyère cheese.
You can never have enough elephants.
I'll close the door behind us, a tiny tap.
It's where museums tuck away the weird.

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I've awakened early. Really could have used another night of long sleep. We'll see how today goes.

Furniture in the bedroom has been rearranged bit over the past few days and as a result, Ginza's cat tree is now located between the bed and the wall and that seems pretty convenient for her, putting her two favorite pieces of furniture right beside each other.

Last evening, when I got into bed, I felt it when she leapt from the floor onto the bed next to me, but immediately leapt from there...

IzabelaKaramia,
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up onto a perch on the cat tree.

I almost felt disappointed that she went up there instead of coming to fall asleep beside me...

Until about 10 minutes later as I'm starting to drift into the twilight between awake and asleep, she seemingly leapt from the perch on the tree to right beside me, purring loudly and then kneading the blankets and spinning around until she found her comfy niche and orientation.

And so the two of us went to sleep last night. She was soon utterly zonked out,

IzabelaKaramia,
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so zonked out that even when I needed to readjust myself and nudged and moved her some, she kept sleeping.

Ginza seemingly has no worries at all anymore when she falls asleep beside me.

I think sometimes she feels I'm like big clumsy mom to her, or maybe she feels that I'm a big clumsy kitten to her, one that she feels need to watch over and take care of as best she can.

It has become one of the most intense relationships I've had with a cat in my life.

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So far can't say I'm enjoying the PNW spring weather. We will get sunshine today and tomorrow, highs reaching into low 60s, but after that forecast says six days of clouds and showers and temps down in the low to mid 50s.

Sunshine and warmth is important to my well-being and honestly I am nervous about later in the year when the cooler and wetter weather returns to this area along with the short hours of daylight.

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@ninetiger

A mom, a friend, I think she's happy to have one in her life after all the time she spent on her own outside.

She makes me smile so often during the day. Like this morning, I looked at her on the bed and she's using her catnip banana as a pillow for her head. She noticed me, rubbed her head into the catnip banana and chirped.

I'm amazed at how gentle and sweet her soul is after all those years without a close friendship.

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@ninetiger

9 or 10 years old by the history I was given.

The fact that a few people over the years had participated in feeding her certainly helped with making it easier for me to show her that I could be friendly toward her, though maybe she never anticipated how much friendlier a person might be.

She was so skittish when I first began feeding her and being allowed to pet her along the back of her neck and spine. Had to move so slowly or she would run off.

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Morning came too soon. But I slept long and well and I hope that I will have better energy today but I probably should still take things easy as possible.

I can hear Ginza thrashing away at the ball that dangles from her cat tree.

Time to make me breakfast.

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I had one of my puzzle maze dreams last night. They don't necessarily occur in a maze, but they always involve me trying to find a complex route where I keep encountering new things and people and I know I'm trying to find my way to some sort of goal.

Muscles are sore some from lifting and unpacking efforts of last two days.

I ate breakfast but may eat second one soon. I think getting a morning food routine back is helping me feel the hunger I have for more calories and nutrients.

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Been a long time since I had the corset available to wear, going to have to start easing my way back into it again.

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I ate 2nd breakfast and I still feel hungry.

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Doing better today than yesterday but still quite drained and when I take a walk later, it'll be short and very very easy. I just want it to circulate blood and give me a sense of time to myself and relaxing.

And hope that tomorrow I feel fully or close to fully recovered and that maybe I can try to take a walk that goes over an hour and over 3 miles.

IzabelaKaramia,
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Sun kept ducking in and out of clouds while I walked. When shining, it felt okay, but when hiding, that chilly wind got sharp and cruel.

IzabelaKaramia,
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obscure thought of the day: when a lighthouse keeper brings you a large fish, you will be enchanted.

IzabelaKaramia,
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@rauder

for that you need to find a lamplighter in London back in the 1800s

IzabelaKaramia, to random
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I'm up early early unfortunately.

Yesterday was a hard and draining day. It took a long time to fall asleep after everything and now here it is Monday.

But Ginza is very happy to have the old bed back. She's happy to have those familiar scents again.

And while I didn't sleep nearly enough, I'm glad not to feel like I'm sinking down into a marshmallow. I very much prefer a firm mattress.

I don't think I'll have any extra spoons to take on unpacking today.

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My bedroom here is smaller than my last one and I'm needing to figure out arrangements of furniture, including cat furniture.

As a result, Ginza after eating her breakfast has been sleeping in a cat bed on the bed. Plus in this pic you can see her looking at a second cat bed on the bed.

Can it get any bedder than that?

IzabelaKaramia,
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All things considered, I feel drained but not terrible so that's a step up from what exhausted days have often felt like the past few years.

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A difficult aspect for me of now having the rest of my stuff arrive 4 weeks later is that here at the new place I had begun to feel a sense of knowing where things are and how the routines are going to be...

But now I've got to integrate back in objects that had been absent from my life for a month and so I feel myself becoming disconnected from that sense of knowing and drifting back into a place that I don't know.

I'm not helped any by how exhausted I am today, thoughts are slow and unruly

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I ended up requesting the afternoon off from work so I could work on some more unpacking that felt very necessary, even more necessary than vegetating thru an afternoon and trying to only get as much rest as possible while doing work for work.

So I unpacked the kitchen items and set up the work desk.

In doing that latter, I see need to consider investing in a smaller table for the work desk. I can shrink down the surface area and it'll fit better into the space I have here do my wfh job.

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We got some sunshine here today and I took a very slow walk to enjoy that.

I think sometimes because of sea and ocean being nearby, you can get some magnificent and puffy cumulus clouds.

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Now having my big pot to work with again, I'm making a veggie mash with Russet potatoes, sweet potatoes, peas, and carrots.

I can serve that with the breakfast sausages I eat in the mornings or serve it alongside other things like chicken thighs or pork chops.

But wow I need good sleep tonight, hope that I've decompressed enough from the stress and feel okay enough that I won't take too long to cross over into dreamworld and spend a long time there recharging.

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I'm happy to have Ginza's water bowl back again. It was the water bowl that I first started putting out for her outside in the summer last year and turned into the water bowl, still outside, that she would ask to go outside to drink from in the cold mornings of early winter. Eventually when she started staying inside almost all the time and then all the time, I moved it inside next to the fridge where she ate back at the old place.
It's a pet food dish that I think that has been in the family

IzabelaKaramia,
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more than 40 years and it's quite solid and heavy and I don't know if pet food and water bowls are made anything like that anymore.

Nice to have it back again and once again it's the bowl where Ginza can get a drink from.

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@ninetiger

You only need to put with week long stretches of endless clouds and drizzle before you get that day of big and beautiful puffy cumulus clouds drifting above.

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Also happy I can get back into my batch cooking routine again. It's a useful way for me to conserve my spoons and help make sure I eat calories every day and get nutrients in me.

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That made me smile. I heard Ginza purring behind me and I turned to look. She was up on the bed, in one of the cat beds that are sitting on it today. She was kneading upon it and purring and not even looking at me. She was happy about having one of her cat beds back and I think it's the one that she took her first nap inside in.

She seems happy to be reconnecting with objects that disappeared from her life and should we be surprised that people have that same instinct?

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