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jahtnamas

@jahtnamas@lemmy.blahaj.zone

sam, 34, ♈🌞♑🌛♐⤴️, sie/hir||they/them, chaotic genderqueer demon and future bigenital androgyne, pansexual, polyam-curious, adhd+autistic, (invisibly) disabled, anarcho-socialist, former apple evangelist turned linux novice and android noob, romantic satanist and daemonolator

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jahtnamas,
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i was always bi/pan but with a preference for women, but i feel like coming into transmasc(-ish) genderqueerness made me somehow “gayer” for men than before.

jahtnamas,
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may i ask where you got those sweet pentagram garters?

jahtnamas,
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i had this whole argument with my mom when i was like, 5, because i didn’t understand why i wasn’t a boy. i preferred boy things, i should be a boy. she was very insistent i was a girl.

my parents ended up divorcing not long after this but that was mainly prompted by mom fucking off for approximately six months.

jahtnamas,
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go back in time and try to obtain some very specific birth control pills…?

jahtnamas,
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i would if it weren’t prohibitively expensive and i think i have to move out of this fuckhell state first

also it might be super difficult for me to get T regardless if i’m in a red or blue state

jahtnamas,
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i have an informed consent clinic in mind (easily accessible by bus too since i cannot drive) but no idea how much the appointment is going to cost me and all my income anymore is from selling unwanted possessions after being denied medicaid and SSDI.

jahtnamas,
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i have actually looked into this before, and my state does not offer expanded medicaid, but thank you anyway

jahtnamas,
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tbf idk where mine ended up but i think it counts in the nonbinary umbrella

someone else mentioned transneutral, it could work as that too

jahtnamas,
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when your transgender identity is neither feminine nor masculine, ergo “neutral”

jahtnamas,
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okay so i just changed the capitalization on my name and it only stuck when i force-refreshed (ctrl+shift+r)

Is it normal to misgender yourself?

When I talk to myself, sometimes I call myself my dead name, or my gender I don’t associate myself with. I am self-aware enough to know I’ve associated myself as male and [name] for thirty-seven years, but it annoys me I haven’t made that connection in my brain somewhere that yes, I’m a girl, my name is Eshe. I feel it...

jahtnamas,
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popping in again just to say i’ve been misgendering myself in my head since i figured myself out almost 2 years ago. It’s So Normal.

it's collapsing (tw: relationships, dysphoria)

Hi, I’m gonna reintroduce myself, first. I went by VirulentAura, and have been kinda active this past week posting, if anyone actually cares. I decided to change it up, cuz I was tired of lemmy.world being down, and, I dunno, I wanted to use my name. Preface aside, please be advised that the content may be troubling to some....

jahtnamas,
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the irony of blåhaj going down after you posted this. seems we’re back but just barely. i might not be able to post this comment!

i’ve been seeing these vents from the sidelines and i’m sorry your wife suddenly turned like this not even 2 weeks into your journey. i don’t think i can answer these questions for you, but it seems like she might be getting severely influenced by her family? something similar happened to me a long time ago, where a family friend tried twice to get me to break up with someone on his own personal moral grounds (read: some lies he made up). it only succeeded the first time.

jahtnamas,
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oohhh, that’s vile. reminds me a bit of what my mom did to me and my dad. absolutely stay by your kids.

jahtnamas,
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hyfetch user spotted blobcat, eyes

jahtnamas,
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i would like to post to this comm, i just worry i’m coming from the wrong side so to speak

jahtnamas,
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i’m not transfem, i’m not even AMAB, i’m not sure my genderweirdery allows me to claim “femboy”

it seems not in the spirit of the comm to me?

jahtnamas,
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you’re fine, dw

jahtnamas,
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don’t know why private browsing didn’t occur to me, but i ended up having to manually delete all storage and cookies related to lemmy.blahaj.zone

anyway i’m fine i guess. this is a very poor implementation of 2fa though.

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