onevia

onevia, 6 days ago

Good luck! They’re out there! Just have to find them :)

And all who are considering Emma’s request for friendship, she is amazing! And a fantastic person to talk with ❤️

onevia, 3 days ago

Matrix has been a home to me as well, hence why I’m responding 3 days late 😅

But I know you have a friend in me :)

onevia, 6 days ago

I can not express the gratitude I have for you. Keris seemed to be in a desperate situation and I think you are going to be such a positive influence on her life as she moves forward.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Youre a modern day underground railroad safe haven for us trans people who just want to live our lives.

The world needs more people like you and your family. ❤️

Take care and again, thank you for saving a close friend

onevia, 6 days ago

Troy and Abed in the moooorrrnnning!

Yep, you’re a really awesome person! Love those names. And I would bet money Keris would be so happy to have a little kitty door so they can visit her. She adores cats.

onevia, 11 days ago

Just had my first check up with my Endo yesterday. Been on HRT for 3 months and my E levels are almost where I want them at 97.1 pg/ml. Trying to get to the 150 range.

Haven’t gotten my testosterone test back yet but hoping it’s low as the 100mg of Spiro a day is already kicking my ass.

Also through these blood tests I found out I probably have hyperthyroidism so gonna have to figure that all out. And maybe Celiacs Disease. Lol

But otherwise, I’m super happy with my results so far and just learned my daily ibuprofen intake can stunt boob growth so I’m coming off that as fast as possible.

Currently my biggest hurdle is finally coming out at work … Then everyone in my life will finally know and I don’t have to keep going by my deadname

onevia, 25 days ago

Thank you for your response ❤️🥹

My son is 21 months old and his birth was a catalyst for my egg crack.

Ever since he was born I parented as my authentic self (whether I realized that at the time or not) so largely my parenting has been just that. Being the best parent I can be.

My wife and I were talking earlier today and we both for some reason are having a hard time seeing me as a “mom” but also not as a “dad” Somewhere in between, but in all other aspects we both see me as a woman. Dysphoria withstanding.

I’m not saying I feel like the parental roles should be different per se, that doesn’t make sense to me. I view it as a full partnership and gender doesn’t play a part.

But then on the other hand I feel like I’m taking something away from my son by feeling more and more disconnected from “daddy” and more connected to “something else” Like I don’t deserve the title of mom or dad but something else. I desperately want to be mom but I love hearing my son run up to me yelling dada!. It warms my heart because that is his sound for me. For our special connection we share…

I think at the end of the day, I have some internal transphobia to work through because this is the one area of my transition where I have this sense of being a “trespasser” Being a mother has always been a dream of mine even when I didn’t have the words for it. So why don’t I feel like I am a mother? When in all aspects of life I am living as my authentic self.

😓

Anyways, thank you for coming to my Ted talk :)

onevia, 23 days ago

I feel largely the same way. When I try and think of what makes a good mom or dad, they both are basically “what makes a good parent”

I just have some mental block on the labels for some reason. 😓

onevia, 18 days ago

Thank you so much for your insightful reply ❤️

I think I personally got so caught up in the idea of “what makes a good mom” that I didn’t really see the simple answer of it being about being a good parent. Just being that person your child can always come to

onevia, 1 month ago

Damn. This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing! 🥰

onevia, 1 month ago

For me, chemical x was testosterone.

It gave me dysphoria instead of super powers 😔

onevia, 1 month ago

You answered it in your first sentence.

The US healthcare system. 🙄

onevia, 1 month ago

Thank you for that. And you are absolutely right! Questioning people looking for signs is not a good idea because it all comes from within. It is self discovery and not something other people can put on you.

Do you mind if I use your first paragraph as an actual preface in my post? I will of course give you credit.

onevia, 1 month ago

I also explained away my feelings with my disgust of toxic masculinity 😄

onevia, 1 month ago

I relate hard to the men’s restroom feelings. To the point I avoided going in public at all costs.

Over the weekend was actually the very first time I used the woman’s restroom. I would of held it but damn does Spiro make me need to pee, lol.

I waited till no one was in there and it was both exhilarating and relieving (more ways than one, hehe!). Had the added bonus of wearing a face mask to better blend in. Looked up in the mirror while washing my hands and saw a woman. I saw me ❤️

onevia, 1 month ago

Sometimes I feel like this is basically my gender 😂

onevia, 1 month ago

Hitting subscribe on egg_irl.

onevia, 1 month ago

This was me. Oh my god I always needed my clothing to cover as much as possible. Always hated shorts because I thought my legs were disgustingly hairy (not really) and I needed to wear a hoodie everywhere. No matter how hot it was.

onevia, 29 days ago

Yeah totally. All boys dream of being a girl some day. If only we were trans. But ya know

Still cis tho. 😂

onevia, 29 days ago

I did the same thing basically. Also started shaving my arms for a while because they got to a point where they seemed “too” hairy. Stopped and had to play boy when I got made fun of for it. 😓

onevia, 1 month ago

My heart truly goes out to you. I lost my mom in 2017 to stomach cancer and it was gut wrenching. We have always had a up and down relationship but I was with her at the very end.

It was before I realized I was a woman and as I was trying to have my “goodbye” talk a few weeks before she passed, I explained how I was feeling over the years with our relationship and how I knew she tried her best and I forgive her. But even after saying all that, I had a sense there was more I needed her to know about me and unfortunately I never got to tell her.

I don’t know how your relationship with your mother is, but if you have anything you need to get off your chest. I really suggest you do it. Even if it feels like the hardest thing in the world. But of course you need to keep your own mental health as your top priority. Even writing things down in a letter without her seeing is cathartic.

Please please PLEASE reach out to me through dm or something if you’d like someone to talk with who has been through a similar situation.

I give you the biggest hug I can while you go through this. Know you are not alone ❤️

onevia, 1 month ago

Honestly, I find it so empowering that we are able to sculpt our bodies into what we need them to be. It amazes me.

onevia, 1 month ago

As a witchy inspired trans woman, I couldn’t agree more :D

It’s legit magic.