I'm feeling so worn down the last few days. I am failing to keep up with a lot of things in my life and I've fallen so far behind something will give soon and I'm not sure what. And the news just makes me feel rather hopeless for the near future too.
I really do feel like giving up. On everything. Almost every night for the past month or two. I know I will wake up tomorrow and not just tread water but swim, like I do every day. But for tonight, I am just going to fail and allow myself to fail utterly.
Maybe some day I won't go to bed almost every night feeling like I don't think I an bear to wake up to another day. But maybe I won't. Maybe this is just what it is to live with my brain in this world now. Either way, it's still worth it. You all are still worth it. And we will wake up tomorrow and make things worth it again.
