TheSunnyOne

@TheSunnyOne@strangeobject.space

In my 30s, She/Her, Fae/Faer, It/Its, Demisexual Pansexual Lesbian, Nerd, wannabe writer, trans, UK Based (Southwest), 🔞 18+ followers only

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foolisholivia, to random

i want to throw myself off a bridge please and thank you 😊

TheSunnyOne,

@foolisholivia hugs offered

Please don't.

TheSunnyOne, to random

Preface:

My family do love me. I live with them rent free. They've never physically hurt me, and never intentionally psychologically hurt me.

For the better part of a week, and still going, I have felt truly awful...physically and mentally.

It took 2 days for the family I live with to realise this, and even since then they have not actually checked on me.

My mum got ill as well, turns out she has Covid again (which might also be why I'm where I am right now).

Many repeated announcements of this fact in the family chat, regularly getting check ups, brought food, drink, etc.

My parents just seem to forget about my disability, or ignore it, or think it'll go away eventually.

I think...a short term sickness they can compute, and deal with...but long term, chronic, like mine, it's now just background noise to them.

They complain to me about aches & pains, forgetting that that is my every day experience.

Exhausted.

TheSunnyOne,

I don't make a song and dance about how I'm feeling, because..it's just how I feel every damned day.

I ever say "I've spent the past week barely able to move." the response I usually get is "Oh, why? What've you done?"

Like...argh...

My sibling? He's actually put the time and effort in to learning what's going on with my body.

Parents? They're largely clueless.

They've always loved the both of us. Always done what they could to be there for us, at least financially.

We have a money issue? They help us out.

It's tight, we're not a rich family by any means, but they're there.

But emotionally?

My mum has really only recently learned to tell us she loves us, and I've never heard my dad say it. They can't sit and talk to us, we're all incredibly distant from each other.

My mum is undiagnosed ADHD with Autistic traits, definite RSD, and a hint of narcissism.

My dad is undiagnosed Autistic.

That's created special combinations in us.

TheSunnyOne,

I am just thoroughly exhausted of my disability being so often overlooked or brushed away for the needs/wants/desires/demands of my parents, despite repeated attempts to educate both on it all.

And this week has made that feeling more prominent.

TheSunnyOne, to random

The level of pain I feel across my whole body, on a good day, is i think equivalent to what the average person experiences the day after they push themselves at the gym.

Like...all over, it hurts, but I can move if I take things slowly, stay upright for a while, etc.

Today is a bad day.

Everything hurts, and bits of me don't work properly.

My brain fog impacts my day-to-day; I can't really read any more, understanding new things is difficult for me, it's like sending a thought through syrup...sometimes it all gets through, slowly, other times it gets stuck.

On a bad day, I have to think to talk.

On a good day, my chronic migraines are only painful.

On a bad day, they make me feel sick, give me bowel issues, and so much more.

I'm supposed to be taking meds for the migraines, every 3 weeks I inject myself, the migraines become tolerable.

It has now been 11 weeks since my last injection, because the NHS are being useless and uncommunicative.

Today is a bad day.

TheSunnyOne, to random

I just made an intensely difficult decision to block someone I care about, on every platform.

I'm not sure what the potential fallout of this decision is going to be, but I apologise if any of you get hit by it.

I had to do this for both mine and her mental health.

TheSunnyOne, to KindActions

Hey Y'all,

I've got a friend in dire need of some Mutual Aid right now, I know it's a lot to ask but could y'all boost, share, and if you can, donate to this GFM?

It takes a few working days to transfer over, but every little helps:

https://www.gofundme.com/f/rent-utilities-stability

TheSunnyOne, to random

Hey y'all,

I'm putting together resources for the trans community, just collating links and stuff, about Trans and/or Queer History.

Sadly, a huge amount of what I've had saved has gone due to Link Rot. And modern Google is utterly useless at finding these resources again.

I've currently got working links for:

Mira Bellwether's "Fucking Trans Women"

A copy of "Queers Read This" from the 90s NY pride march

A link to Silver Sprocket's "Self Defense for Trans Women" guide

Links to "One From The Vaults", "Harsh Reality", and "Blood & TERF" podcasts

And a relatively curated list of youtube videos going over Queer & Trans history.

But I was wondering if any of y'all had more links to add?

I'm looking preferably for stuff written by and for trans people, about us, about our history, etc, and preferably in accessible links rather than books, etc.

If y'all have anything, please let me know.

TheSunnyOne, to random

Since I've said this elsewhere:

Heya everyone!

Friendly and loving reminder to unclench your jaw, untense your neck, shoulders, and back.

Hydrate and Eat if you haven't already.

Take your meds if you need to.

Look away from your screen and do a little stretch.

Take care of yourselves <3

TheSunnyOne, to random

Stonewall are doing a thing where you can send a postcard to Rishi Sunak about the (5 year!) delay now on them banning Conversion Therapy over here.

Link for you to do it:

https://stonewall.org.uk/our-work/campaigns/dear-rishi-bct

Here's my message to him:

The front of the postcard is a map of the world (all continents showing as yellow, oceans as white) The text says "Greetings from... Canada, Ecuador, Brazil, France, Malta, India, New Zealand, And 15 other countries where we are protected from abuse. "

esther, to random

Every time someone sings praises of how “peaceful” and “nice” the Fediverse is, you should add “for white cis people and mostly men” in your head, because that’s what it is and I’m tired of seeing the same take from the same people over and over again.

And if you feel the urge to reply sth like “if you don’t like it here, leave”, you’re part of the problem. Also, I do like it here. That doesn’t mean everything is great and above criticism.

TheSunnyOne,

@esther I've noticed the same sentiments over on BlueSky too, and doubtless every other new or repopularised SocMed site is experiencing the same.

Predominantly CisHet white dudes are talking about how perfect, friendly, and nice their chosen platform is simply because the blatant, and algorithmically boosted, bigotry, toxicity, and hate is no longer as visible to them.

TheSunnyOne, to random

To anybody else that needs this reminder:

reginasbread, to random
@reginasbread@homo.promo avatar

just watched a video about the lack of bicycles in hollywood productions. e.g. there are post apocalypse shows where there's no fuel or they can't use engines for other reasons, and the characters are shown walking or riding a horse. they never try bikes even though it's the most popular mode of transportation on the planet. Daryl from TWD on a bicycle? uncool. if a protagonist is doing it, it's a comedy. riding a bicycle is seen as a ridiculous thing to do unless you're a child. I am stunned.

TheSunnyOne,

@reginasbread extra interesting when you realise that bikes are quite prominent in other mediums.

Using a push bike is common in most post-apocalyptic books.

It very likely is down to Rule of Cool.

whitney, to trans

Maybe others have seen this, but I cannot resist posting it.

TheSunnyOne,

@whitney

Alt text:

A single panel from (a presumably very real) issue of a comic featuring Deadpool.

Deadpool is knelt down in front of a small 4 legged shark, pointing at the shark.

The shark is acting similar to a puppy dog, it has a knife in its mouth and looks happy.

Deadpool is saying:

Blahaj, you are honor bound to protect trans kids. Can you handle that?

Blahaj the shark is responding:

Mrrrrrrrr.

foolisholivia, (edited ) to random

gaymer?

TheSunnyOne,

@foolisholivia making me pick between "I love vibeo gaymes" and "boobies" was unfair.

TheSunnyOne,

@foolisholivia I may have failed the gamer gods...

TheSunnyOne,

@foolisholivia My console of choice?

I pick my already dead PS3 😁​

TheSunnyOne,

@foolisholivia Wahey! ^_^

TheSunnyOne, to random

2 years, 4 months, 7 days on HRT.

I see the progress that others have made with less time, and it feels like I'm doing something wrong.

TheSunnyOne, to trans

TheSunnyOne, to random

When Starfield was first announced i was intrigued.

When they first showed off gameplay, I was "whelmed" by the footage.

At E3 this year they impressed me enough to add it to my Steam wishlist.

The revelation of them forcibly outing a trans employee, holding her surgeries hostage to extort her, firing her, and many other deeply transphobic things has now lead me to once again remove the game from my wishlist and add yet another AAA developer to my Steam block list.

Commander Sterling's quick overview of events:

https://youtu.be/Ko8khiV3C4Y

Leona's 4 hour breakdown of her experiences with Zenimax & Bethesda, including hard evidence to support her claims:

https://youtu.be/6kglNioOuK8

Sardonicus, to random
@Sardonicus@mastodon.social avatar

A Regional Train passes a Railroad Crossing
between Flooded Fields, Nidderau-Eichen, Germany
image credit: Michael Probst

TheSunnyOne,

@Sardonicus haunting but kind of beautiful.

Very reminiscent of Spirited Away...

Animated gif of a scene from the movie Spirited Away depicting the train of the spirit world riding across an ocean

w7voa, to ai
@w7voa@journa.host avatar

How an written story on created chaos at . https://wapo.st/43l2D30

TheSunnyOne,

@w7voa I've started to notice a huge increase in articles within various fandom spheres that are clearly written by AI.

I've started to block any site that crops up in my feed that uses them, because they are genuinely awful to read and are often a huge waste of time.

It's such a shame to see it all becoming more prominent.

TheSunnyOne, to random

I want a jacket with patches, I said. It'll look cool, I said.

Forgetting I can't really sew, and I've never sewn patches.

My fingers hurt.

This is my first of, like, 20+ patches.

TheSunnyOne,

These are the rest of the patches I currently have and plan on sewing on.

"Queers Bash Back" is heavily inspired by a video by Caelan Conrad called "Queer Rage and the Christian Right" which itself heavily references a pamphlet from the 90s called "Queers Read This" in which QBB is mentioned.

I'll link both the video and pamphlet below in a second.

TheSunnyOne,

@inherentlee Ooh! Very good to know :3

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