@MarkRDavid
I guess I could have worded this all better... I absolutely value it when I can hyper-focus.
What I'm struggling with is the fact that I can't seem to do things well or stay properly "oriented" with them without excluding ALL other aspects of my life (which I very much want to have in my life).
It's how I ended up erasing SO much of myself to keep my educational nonprofit going for the last 10 years.
That kind of "flattening" of my life has been devastating.