More so than money, what I value is attention. Real-life attention - not Internet attention. One reason why I hated being a programmer so much, as I later realised. Being left alone is a punishment to me. The computer is simply a poor substitute that I found for that as a child. And one reason I perform well early on in a job but not later is because people leave you alone more. I'm delighted if someone talks to me. No need for a computer then.
My real life looks completely opposite to this. I spend way too much time alone and I don't know how to make friends or meet girls. That's not something I learned how to do when I was younger, because I developed late and was bullied and excluded because of it.
I'm not very good at demanding people's attention, even when I need it. Low self-esteem, because it never had a chance to develop.
