my fortress of self loathing is crumbling under the weight of love in my life this year
i spent a lifetime building that fortress
brick by brick
walls of judgement
windows of despair
the task handed down to me; a family tradition
eventually i learned to recruit help
new perspectives to generate new judgements
new fires to stoke my anxiety
i learned to forget i had needs at all
for 9 months i have taken a fucking wrecking ball of joy to this fortress
the last remnants are crumbling to sand.
